i hate this...

i don't want to feel this way anymore... i can't stand it... it's just a drain of my energy... i don't foresee this taking me anywhere... it makes it worst that i've got to live with the fact that you said it... and i can't do anything about it... it's completely out of my control... i hate this... it's not fair at all...

it's over???

somehow this year seemed to fly by extremely quickly... faster than my SJI days even! and i'm still trying to figure out why... is it because i'm busier? so i don't really pay attention to time? or is it because i'm having so much fun that it seems to just drift away as well? or is it coz school days are longer... and therefore we've got less free time at home that i'm so used to. hmmm... guess it's more of the last one lah. 1st one... not really coz sec 4 i was really alot busier with all the npcc stuff. now still have lah... but not as much as last time.

anywayz yesterday's end of school ceremony was ok lah, at least don't need to sit on the floor hahaha thank heavens there were chairs man... coz my legs are still hurting :p got some, ok alot, of titbits for winning the netball. we also wrote a petition to bro. paul to allow mr low to go up to J2 with us. some ppl in my class felt that bro. paul would scold us for writing a petition like that... but i think it's perfectly fine. it's better than we barge into his office and demand that mr low goes up with us rite... anyway even if we DID barge in, i don't think there's alot that they can do about it hahaha

after school, the guys , and girls, were in class celebrating and eating all the food that we got from the netball thingy, and after that went out to celebrate clar's birthday with a few rounds of LAN hahaha imagine... girls playing LAN... maybe it's coz i'm from sji but... i've never seen girls playing LAN before :p apparently elisa scared the hell out of derek, and man yun got kinda high hahaha. and all this time where was i? i was underground in a room with close to zero phone reception with toilet plumbing running above our heads and 2 huge ventilation shafts for the air rifle range looming over us, having a meeting with my HO hahaha

the meeting was with the KAH of the unit, 3 CIs and HO. 3 all blues sitting in the room... very interesting hahaha talked about alot of things that needs to be done. 1.5 pages to be exact... major changes with SJI being like one of the 1st schools to put 5 day week into effect. if you'll know any other school using 5 day week already please do tell me. anwyayz before the meeting while waiting for HO, just sat back and did some thinking on that unbelievably old sofa in HQ, they really gotta clean it soon. anywayz was thinking about all the fun my class people were having outside, while i was sitting in a room with 2 other tired CJ guys, just talking about life. then i realised that i had a choice of whether to be there or not. i made this choice more than a year ago, when i handed in my CI application form to my OC. i was in that room because i had a job to do, because i signed up for it, and because, in a weird way, i like it! ok fine no one likes long meetings that last for a few hours, but right at the end it's all about how much you accomplish, how much cadets learn, and how you helped you mould them in one way or another to become a better person. in this case... it's the result that's worth looking at, because there's never anything really glittery about the process :p

so the meeting ended at 5 yesterday, was really quite tired from it. haven't had that length of meeting for a while. went home, and began working on PW again.

this morning went to outram MRT to do CIP. only 5 people turned up in the end lah! me, derek, mymy, koon and ganesh. apparently daphne was there, but i never saw her. she collected hers separately from us. we spent about 1 hr 15 minutes actually collecting, the other time we spent walking around PS, and eating breakfast at BK. really lah i hate collecting money. why? because of the attitude of some singaporeans. when koon walked down the street, you could see a radius of people around him lah. i mean like there was an empty space, like putting a fire hot steel ball under a running tap. the steam would cause an empty space between the ball and the water. they just simply stay as far from us as humanly possible. if you don't wanna donate just say you don't want to lah... not as if we're going to kill you or anything, even though at times we look like we're going to lah hahaha

got home... ate lunch... slept... woke up... and here i am hahaha. it's the beginning of the holz, and it's back to business at SJI NPCC. cheers!

yikes...

i'm so damn unfit... :( after 2 consecutive days of vball training, my thighs hurt a bit, and i think my arms will hurt tomorrow as well. but some guys' arms were already hurting today, but mine were ok lah, badminton helps ;) must start my physical conditioning all over again... got a long way to go if i wanna keep fit hahaha i'm getting flabby again... even after yesterday's training i could feel my abs coming back already hahaha tt shows how bloody unready i was for training lah!!! oh well...

PW dry run went overall ok today, except for certain well foreseen glitches. don't know how to fix it lah... bloody problem. i think overall our presentation was the best lah! YAY!!! hahaha guess being busy all the time in class is a good thing :p

going to run in the morning tomorrow... even though my thighs are kinda sore already, but it's all part of training. need to push! cheers!

pee double you...

it's on every single J1s mind. the only people i know who don't give a damn about PW are some t20 guys :p some of them really don't give a shit hahaha anywayz the PW mood is everywhere... people are ponning lectures left right and centre, to do PW, to get some rest, or simply to slack (don't ask me about the connection to PW for the last one).

anywayz stayed back in school today to compile our OP. i think it was one of the most productive PW meetings we've ever had. should've used this method so many more times before... things would probably be alot smoother by now, but i'm afraid of the impact i'd leave on my group members lah. but since now we're really in a rush... just decided to do it lah, don't care liaoz, as long as i get this job done... exactly one week more to presentation!

about the previous entry... don't take things to literally lah people!! hahaha see the message behind the whole thing, and not just the guy dying at the end. think of it as a metaphor... yeah :)

vball training starting tomorrow again, don't know whether i can go or not, coz my group will probably be trying to finish up our OP. after that still gotta tidy up our files and research. still lots to be done. if there was no chinese looming over my head i'd feel so much better lah!!! bloody chinese... always coming in at the wrong time, for so many damn years liaoz.

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From The Inside

I don't know who to trust no surprise

(Everyone feels so far away from me)

Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies

(Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit)

(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)

(All I ever think about is this)

(All the tiring time between)

(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]

Take everything from the inside and throw it all away

Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily

(Everyone feels so far away from me)

Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me

(Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit)

(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)

(All I ever think about is this)

(All the tiring time between)

(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]

Take everything from the inside and throw it all away

Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

I won't waste myself on you

You

You

Waste myself on you

You

You

I'll take everything from the inside and throw it all away

Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

Everything from the inside and just throw it all away

Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

You

You

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cheers folks! :)

oh man...

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Love Story

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.

Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.

Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh in silence for a while)

Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game

Peter: Eh? What game?

Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?

Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.

Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to itat all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?

Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is areally great movie in theatre now.

Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)

Day 2: Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.

Day 3: They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7: Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moonglowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

Day 25: Spend time at a theme park and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hot-dogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together for a while.

Day 67: They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortuneteller's cheek.

Day 84: Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99: They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.

1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.

Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?

Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.

1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter haven't return. Then someone walked up to her.

Stranger: Is your name Tina?

Tina: Yes, and may I help you?

Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.

Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sighed.

11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket.

The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He looked weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.

"Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realise that you are areally cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you."

11:58
Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.

As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days.

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oh man... cheers.

some questions...

these aren't that hard... but if you're really bored, just give them a try hahaha

1) A murderer is condemned to death. He has to choose any one from three rooms. The first is full of raging fires, the second is full of assassins with loaded guns,and the third is full of lions that haven't eaten anything for 3 years. Which room is safest for him?

2) A woman shoots her husband. Then she holds under water for over 5 minutes. Finally, she hangs him. But 5 minutes later they both go out together and enjoy a wonderful dinner together. How can this be?

3) There are two plastic jugs filled with water. How could you put all of this water into a barrel, without using the jugs or any dividers, and still tell which water came from which jug?

4) Can you name three consecutive days without using the words Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, or Sunday? ( Only in English !!! )

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Answers:
1) The third. Lions that haven't eaten in three years are dead ( so the rooms with lions is safe)

2) The woman was a photographer. She shot a picture of her husband, developed it, and hung it up to dry.

3) Freeze them first.Take them out of the jugs and put the ice in the barrel. You will be able to tell which water came from which jug.

4) Sure you can: Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow!

hope you had some laughs. cheers! :)

it is done...

i'm 99% through to J2. the only thing that can stop me now is a downward moderation with which i'd really scream. ok i can't scream... but i can shout :p results as follows:

Maths - B
Physics - B
Econs - E

large improvement from OOO during midyears if you ask me hahaha but econs was a real let down. wrote so much, but apparently it wasn't enough. before including midyears i would've gotten BBD. all in the high B region, but after adding in midyears they're all in the lower B region.

for maths, 2 people to mention. vignesh, who got an F for midyears, shot up to an A. well done bro!!! miss cheryl lee, got 91.5 for maths... irgnts. hahaha she's a robot. but somehow she didn't seem too glad after getting back the paper. for a moment she looked like she was crying :x

now feeling like crap lah... i've got a feeling that a fever is setting in. after the sore throat yesterday. shitty lah after exams must feel like that. actually i guess it's still ok because there's still PW and chinese to deal with hahaha so technically, it's not all over yet.

this picture is from the class outing that we had at sentosa last thursday. it was fun... and i'm darker than derek because of that now hahaha cheers!

You are Taki -
Admired for your style and fresh approach to life, you are the Japanese femme fatale!Deceivingly innocent, you are actually a devil in disguise. You love to show off, but behind thatflamboyant and sometimes uncaring personality, you definately care for and stand up for your friends.Just one flaw, you can be annoyingly hyper and bouncy!! However this can be just what a friend needs after a boring day.
Which Soul Calibur character are you?

this quiz was made by David Park
devil in disguise... i don't think many people would disagree with that hahaha

after school hours...

shall just write about the rest of the time after school lah, quite interesting :p on the way home on the bus i fell asleep. but this time i fell asleep all the way till 1 stop before clementi interchange hahaha that's what happens when u sit right at the back and can lean your head back comfortably :p just as well i ended up there anywayz bought some macs, and as i was on the bus on the way home from clementi the heavy rain subsided. so lucky me :)

afternoon while i was using the computer the keyboard suddenly went konk on me. at first only the spacebar didn't work, then somehow the effects suddenly spread to the rest of the keys. so only left with the keys right at the sides of the keyboard working :p so a while ago i dragged the keyboard from the other computer onto this one, and now i'm typing perfectly!! YEAH! only problem is the keyboard is a bit too big for the drawer, but i can still type all the same hahaha

the need for me to bring my full u to school every friday now is finally settling in. luckily we end school earlier these 2 fridays, at 1.30, and training starts at 2.30. but, still must bring full u to school lah, and CJ uniform isn't very thin either. also need to bring PT kit, so it's like 2 extra attire in my bag, and both cannot be crumpled. woah that would be fun stuff hahaha just hope that there won't be vball trgs on friday as well. if there is... wah knnbccb, later kenna same problem as badminton, get kicked out of team just because i got another CCA that clashes with trgs. bugger...

i think i'm coming down with something... can feel a tingly feeling in my throat. must be from sleeping on the sofa, and my dog walking round and round me. must've breathed in some hair, now coughing a bit. wah cannot fall sick now. never fall sick for the whole year then fall sick now... cannot cannot cannot!!!!

tmr getting back the rest of results, after that must chiong PW. somehow i'm not really concerned with chinese even though i'm always barely passing... just lost interest in it totally liaoz. got a feeling that there will be a hugh shortage of chinese teachers from our generation hahaha no one seems to really enjoy it. oh well... MOE's loss :p cheers.

bad bad bad...

got back the GP and chinese results today. got 50 for chinese, which is i guess not bad since i got 45 for mid years. as for GP. all i can say is fuck. completely f-ed up. got 21/50 for the essay, which is the 1st time i've ever failed an essay in my JC life, and got 23.5/50 for compre. if you compre that to my 30 and 30 during the mid years, you'd say i'm a bloody screw up. really didn't have a very good feeling after the whole paper. i mean from the moment i read the essay questions i knew it wasn't going to be easy, or end up good for that fact. usually when i read the essay questions i'd have at least some idea of which one i would write after glancing through once, but not this one. just stared it blankly, and from then onwards i knew something was reallyg wrong. apparently i approached the question i did from the wrong angle, which of course means completely screwed lah! as for compre... substandard lah. worst vocab i've ever done as well, only 1/5. wtf man... AQ and summary also nothing impressive only 4 each. so for this paper i got 44.5 marks. if i calculate with mid years i'd have 47. thank god for my mid years, if not i'll be at great risk. if they moderate the GP downwards like midyears... i'll really whack something i tell you. probably end up quite violent... :( but that happens...

tomorrow getting back my 3 A level subs. not very promising. for econs, kwee said that our class improved the least. for physics low said that my section B was disappointing. for maths... didn't hear anything about overall performance lah. and today kwee also said that 7 people are up for sup papers. might just as well be me lah! looking at the way my GP turned out. from experience in SJI, the way my english paper goes is usually a guide as to how the rest of my papers will do. can tell from sec 4 alone lah. mid years got B3 for english and overall 31 points... prelims and O levels got A1 and got 19 and 10 respectively. looks like JC isn't going well for me at all... in almost every aspect. cheers...

day 2 of PEEP...

and also the last day of it :p went canoeing with the class at pasir ris. at first went through all the basic things again, as usual... yet again. partnered cheryl for the expedition, since we'll decided that best to pair up 1 guy with 1 girl, for strength purposes. weather was quite good for canoeing i guess, really cloudy and not much sun. so it wasn't exactly blazing hot and the sun wouldn't be reflecting off the water surface into our eyes. also won't get too burnt.

the 1st half of the expedition before reaching coney island was really quite dull lah. everyone was feeling tired and was sloppy. couldn't really get much going. even during lunch we'll just sat arnd on the beach while the other classes were all jumping around in the water. for me i was sitting on the canoe watching the water level go up and down, listening to the waves and just pondering life hahaha really quite relaxing. after lunch played water captain's ball and some piling thingy... don't know it's name also, don't think there even was one hahaha. anyway captain's ball was good. majority of my class guys sat out as there was an excess of players, so more of girl power from my class :p anyway we eventually won uhhh... 7-1? or was it 7-3... blur liaoz hahaha

as for the piling thingy, we basically had to pile as many as our teammates onto a double canoe as possible without any part touching the water and of course without capsizing the boat lah :p my group got the highest record man!!! 9 people!!! WOOHOO!!! and there were 10 people in my group, so in other words only 1 person was keeping the canoe steady. i think we managed to get 9 people up because there were 6 girls in my group, and they were mostly the small and lighter ones hahaha had marian and tini lah, who are like the lightest girls in our class :p but unfortunately our guys were all the taller ones, xuan rui, vignesh and me. although vignesh isn't that heavy, he's just long and occupies alot of space hahaha

on the way back it was alot more entertaining, even though cheryl and i couldn't manage to go straight. somehow we always moved left or right hahaha nearer to singapore my classmates somehow started to gangbang the instructor. we were all chasing him lah, and splashing water at him. but after a while we realised that it was all in vain because his canoe had the cap on, so water wouldn't go in, as compared to ours :p but we all just chased him.

cleaning up was fun too! somehow... hahaha spraying water everywhere, just getting really wet with clean and fresh water after like uhhh... 6 hours in salt water? poor old cheryl's right sandal broke, so i lent her my slippers to go home. she also didn't bring any dry clothes so she borrowed derek's shirt and melissa's shorts hahaha she's damn lucky that we all had a bit of each :p

now my back is finally peeling. i think all the salt did my shoulders in by drying it up completely, so it's all starting to fall off now :p overall it was a good day of sun, sand and uhhh... salt! :p Cheers!

the day as it rolled by...

today was the first day of the Post Exam Enrichment Programme or PEEP. sounds like some censoring... hmmm... anywayz morning went to bt. timah hill, again, and afternoon had games in school

had to report to bk timah hill. 1st highlight of the day was joshua's new specs!!! hahaha wah he looks damn different now man! the specs look kinda nerdy, but also not really nerdy in a way... just don't know how to describe. anyway it's quite cool lah, won't break easily, but u won't see me wearing that kind of specs hahaha too outstanding liaoz. i think u probably can spot them 20 metres away lah!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA so sorry josh :p

well for the first time at bt timah hill... i didn't see a single monkey while we were on the ascent lah! descent either... quite weird. maybe coz nesh, blackie, shawn and me were making a hell lot of noise of the way up :p poor mr low behind us probably went a bit crazy.

so we just walked and walked along the jungle path. was carrying 3 bags all the way :p just as well anyway coz tini didn't feel so well at one point after doing one of the challenges which was to run to don't know where and run back. i think she couldn't really breathe properly after tt episode.

half way up it started to rain. but before that we already walked past an area that was somewhat like a man-made downhill mini-river or something. there was water just flowing downwards, so the floor was kinda squishy. poor mr low had new shoes on hahaha so they were all kinda muddy by the end of the whole thing, especially after the rain. ok it didn't really stop raining until we reached CJ.

on the way back to cj we were lucky enough to have a whole bus to ourselves. so i got 2 seats for myself, and got myself into a comfortable position and soon fell asleep without even knowing it. wah felt damn good... albeit a bit cold. but sleep always conquers cold hahaha when i woke up... i immediately felt that something was wrong. the bus was totally silent lah!!! not a single person was talking! everyone was either sleeping, or just stoning. i looked up to fine elisa, shawn and joshua awake and just staring, didn't get up to see the rest coz i had quite a comfortable position so didn't want to lose it. so i just lay back down and promptly fell asleep again hahaha shuang man... then when the bus stopped at CJ, no one wanted to get up lah!!! hahaha everyone just stoned there, and continued staring. anyway we DID eventually drag our asses off the bus if u were wondering :p

netball was over a damn good results. we had 2 teams. i was in team B. we'll lost one won one. team A on the other hand, won everything! hahaha so we were champions of the afternoon shift hahaha top scorer was joshua, with more than 20 in 5 games. so i've concluded that basketball does help in netball hahaha but quite unbelievable coz considering his new specs, ppl would probably see him as some nerd and find it such a shock when he scores so many :p

mr kwee also told us a few overall results, like so far 22 people will definitely be promoted, with 4 on the line. shufang still got take her sup papers. she should be fine lah, only that sup papers are harder than the promo papers. oh yes the top promo news... miss cheryl lee en yi has gotten 3 As so far... which is like WTF!?!?!? hahaha cannot win her liaoz lah... need a smaller target :p

tomorrow is canoeing at pasir ris. quite looking forward to it, seeing as how those who were there today found it quite fun. although they're kind of red, but i'm already burnt so it's ok hahaha actually my back isn't really peeling yet, neither are my shoulders, just my face. i kind of sped up the process yesterday by just rubbing and rubbing over the sink hahaha

wah this is kind of a long entry... dunno who will spend the time to read it all also hahaha cheers!

ignts...

i really got nothing to say. don't know why i'm here also hahaha just got nothing to do. but then again i guess i'm just waiting... testing...

watched spiderman 2 DVD just now, dad bought back from his thailand trip. wah it's like almost every guy's dream man... be a hero, save the day, and win the damsel hahaha haiz...

waiting... testing... cheers!

sore...

now i realise both my legs are sore. my knee isn't really affecting my walking, but it's more like my thighs :p yes tai's thighs are hurting him... hur hur hur :p the soles of my feet are really quite sore now, from running for so long and being on my feet for so long on sentosa. but i guess chew is a hell lot worst off than me. he got tackled from the back and his ankle bone cracked, damn it will be out for damn long lah. if not for soccer we won't meet each other lah damn it... really hope he heals ASAP.

today's training was... well not something i would call training, coz there wasn't really much training involved hahaha 1st of all a huge number of people didn't turn up. 2nd, well there simply wasn't much training hahaha felt damn lost lah... don't know what's going on liaoz. hadn't seen them for more than 2 months lah!!! bloody hell tt's a long time.

anywayz what HO said in the lecture theatre was all just so relevant to me. not that i didn't do much and participate as a cadet, but you really miss sji only when u've passed it, and you can't do certain things once you're older, which basically equals to after sji life. so damn true... cannot do wacky and crazy stuff anymore, must appear to be more controlled and mature, but eventually i still go a bit crazy now and then when i get high and need to relieve stress :p

looking forward to more NP trgs, hopefully i won't feel so lost again, need to know what's going on. looking forward to PT too... don't know why... must be the fitness madness from JC :p oh well... cheers! :)

sizzle...

tt's what i felt like when i got home. felt like i was radiating heat hahaha i guess that's what happens everytime after you go to sentosa. arrived at harbourfront MRT at about 8.30, after a while of walking met vignesh who arrived at 8.20 hahaha early birds. there were quite a few classes as well, t23 was there and some other class can't remember.

so we went over, started with vball, and after lots of persuading by wee koon the guys finally took off their shirts hahaha so all the way just swam and vball and swam and vball. now i'm red... i'm actually red lah!!! haven't been red for quite a while, correction for my entire life. never EVER been this red... stayed all the way till 6+? then came back to mainland for dinner... the food was bloody expensive lah!!! and didn't taste all that fantastic as well... spent a total of 7.50 on food, 2 rounds. bloody hell waste of my money lah! would've been more tasty at macs :p

got home... took a ice cold shower... soaped my body down twice... got into all the corners of my body to make sure it was free of salt :p after all i did go diving for a while... and all i saw was green hahaha eeky stuff down there. oh and the girls found a live fish while sitting on the big yellow float and got really excited and started screaming... and at first we'll thought it was some shark or something hahaha from the way they scream... anything is possible :p

tomorrow back to npcc training after more than 2 months out. i've gotten really detached from the unit, felt so lost at one point of time. feel kind of blur now also... quite alot of changes that we all need to catch up with. my knee got more banged up today, got a few scratches but that's not a very big deal, just that i'm limping on my left leg now :( my neck is kinda stiff as well... don't know why might be the sun. hope it gets slightly better for tomorrow, although i doubt it will... going to have a really fun and painful time in my full u tomorrow. cheers!

i'm getting weak...

i need CJ mass PE!!! soccer today really pengs lah... and i still suck to the core. sun today was really powerful even with all the clouds around. started taking set pieces from like 12.30, started match at 1.30, played till about 2. then took a break from the blazing sun until 2.30 when more players arrived. i'm sure you'll know that the more players there are on the field, the less tiring it is for one individual player. but unfortunately for me the opposing team had quite a few CJ players lah, so i was running my ass off still, just not as hot as earlier. took a knock on the knee... kinda limped slightly back home.

i think i'm a bit darker already, and redder as well. tomorrow after sentosa... i'm going to be burnt. friday still got training... jialat man sunburn under the blue uniform isn't nice man, especially when u sweat and the material sticks to your shoulders and back... OH NO!!! jialat man... need to kiwi my boots too... haven't touched them since AP lah... which is slightly more than 2 months ago!!! hopefully there ain't no moths inhabiting them yet :p

busy and tiring week after promos... not sure what to do on saturday though... maybe some bball again? hmmm... feel like playing vball as well, coz after today i've finally concluded that i'm better at ball games tt require my hands instead of my 2 feet hahaha so in other words... vball and bball for me please hahaha can still play soccer lah, but just that i suck at it tt's all hahaha maybe after dinner i'll practice me little piano again... after killing my legs, time for my fingers. anyway it's good to do after dinner, coz not very vigorous, and i don't play like those pros where their whole body starts shaking and bouncing on the damn chair! hahaha cheers!

yikes...

just stopped playing the piano for 3 hours. now my fingers feel so light as i type this... can't really feel them properly, but somehow i seem to be typing faster hahaha wah as far as i can remember i've never played for 3 hours straight before in my whole life lah, even as i was learning, and the last time i REALLY played was in like... sec 2 or 3? so playing for 3 hours after about 2 years is... numbing :p at first it was quite smooth going actually, felt good to be moving my fingers again, btw typing and playing piano is different, until some bastards and assholes started burning a hell load of shit, then i was choking on smoke lah!!! even now can still smell it. friggin' disgusting lah! coughing my lungs out just now... can't stand the smell. and it's way too powerful to be haze lah! and too sudden also... so some irritating inconsiderate buggers are causing massive air pollution now, and bringing people closer to death! fuggers...

what am i doing!?!!? this is wrong!!! so damn wrong... no no NO!!! ARGH!!!

HELLO THERE!!!

take away the O and T... and you get...?

i'm just plain bored. cheers!

hmmm... cerulean dream was laggy again, but this is nicer anywayz. quite cool sia... hope u'll enjoy it :) cheers!

Static X - The Only

I'm winning, You're losing.
I'm falling.
Your agony,
lower, than lower.
Before, your forgotten memory.
Heaven, Your Hell.
I'm killing your fantasy.
More, and more.
You follow, your deepest reality.

You're trying to take me, They're trying to make me.
This is the only, Give me the only thing.
Tired of trying, I'm tired of lying.
The only thing I understand is what I feel.

Identity, Fantasy, Heresy, Killing me.
Lower, than lower.
Before, this faintathy.
Hypocrite, Lunatic, Fanatic, Heretic.
More, and more.
You follow, your deepest reality.

You're trying to take me, They're trying to make me.
This is the only, Give me the only thing.
Tired of trying, I'm tired of lying.
The only thing I understand is what I feel.

Hypocrite, Lunatic, Fanatic, Heretic.
Hypocrite, Lunatic, Fanatic, Heretic.
Hypocrite, Lunatic, Fanatic, Heretic.
Hypocrite, Lunatic, Fanatic, Heretic.

You're trying to take me, They're trying to make me.
This is the only, Give me the only thing.
Tired of trying, I'm tired of lying.
The only thing I understand is what I feel.

You're trying to take me, They're trying to make me.
This is the only, Give me the only thing.
Tired of trying, I'm tired of lying.
The only thing I understand is what I feel.

calling all chicken lovers!!!

http://www.subservientchicken.com/

check out this site man! it's damn funny!! albeit a bit laggy, but it's good if you're not in a rush and need a laugh. here's little list of things that it can do...

cartwheel
model
catwalk
moonwalk
fly
jump (oh looks like shufang!!! :x)
strip, hump, anything dirty you can think of...
do a split (ouch! really...)
bang its head
dig its nose
kiss
strangle itself (for the sadist in you...)
drop deap
hug a pillow (awww don't u just wish that was you...)
turn off the lights
act holy (hallelujia!)
act macho
fart (maybe it was hot :p)
lay egg (that just looks sick...)
sing
cry
read a book (woah a scholar chicken!!!)
watch tv (a modern cock...)
scratch armpits (eeewwwwwww)
take a nap
rub eyes
pluck feathers
wave tail (oh man check out that ass...)
P.S. more to be added, as long as i can find the time to find more :p

come now don't get too high... it's only a chicken. :) cheers!

i told you so...

I am 36% evil.

I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com


HAH! EAT THAT! i'm not so evil... MUAHAHAHAHA

did that happen???

hmmm... i THINK mr low called me this morning... hmmm yes he did according to my phone :p i THINK he said something about some seminar at PA, about police career as a future or something like that... that's what i THINK lah, coz i THINK i remembered him saying that "since you're from NPCC i thought i'd ask you". but then what i THINK when i'm half asleep isn't very accurate :p oh well... bet you'll THINK i'm going a bit nuts...

anywayz slept at 4 this morning, woke up at 12. when i went to bed could already see a bit of light from the sun hahaha the walls outside my room were a very faint orange :p 1st time i've noticed such things. but sadly, i can't seem to sleep beyond the time of 12 noon... don't know why. must be the heat from outside the room and the friggin' brightness of it when the light bounces off the roof tiles outside my room.

so i slacked around until 5 plus. installed mechwarrior again and started playing it hahaha i'm getting bored of the computer games i've got, but if i buy a new one now, i won't stop playing, so shall just play my older games until i get bored of it hahaha supposed to get to bang's house at about 4 plus, but seeing that it was so damn hot today, i stayed at home longer hahaha eventually i did go over however, played bball with bang, gem and grace and 2 of their AC friends. don't know why but gem kept scolding me "stupid marcus tai!", "silly marcus tai!!" i think she's just very intruiged with my surname hahaha or just jealous of how high i can jump :p but oh well it was interesting, managed to score a few, but most of the time it just kept bouncing off the damn rim!! so damn irritating...

bang and i agreed that we need to play bball more often, as a simple and fun replacement of mass PE. beginning to get weak again after not having mass PE for so long, and volleyball just doesn't cut it coz all the running that we do is after stray balls that go flying miles away :p need to start mugging for my econs soon coz don't think i'll do too well for my maths. if my physics and maths do well it won't make the maths seem so bad. oh speaking of physics, i got 18 out of 20 for my physics MCQ!!! which means tt i've got 25.7/100 for this physics paper already!!! hahaha suddenly thinking that i can get a B now :p if do well for my econs on wednesday just maybe... MAYBE i can get a C, which would be good!!! cheers!

mecks ah mecks ah...

haiz... feel better than mid years, but because it's more important than midyears... i feel like shit now. could do more questions, but the ever-looming problem of carelessness is driving me nuts. i'm quite confident i can get an O, but not too sure about an E. couldn't even do the freaking summation question lah!!!! but i'm damn happy that i managed to do the mathematical induction question, even though never did anything quite like it before :) tt's the proudest part

tomorrow not school, really have no idea what i'm going to do. all i can think of is to go jogging in the evening... and play some basketball by myself. sianz... nothing to do... except to dream... cheers.

feesyx ah...

it was ok. better than mid years... hell it was a million times better than mid years!!! at least i knew wat i was doing!!! hahaha oh wells on to maths now, then one week break to econs again. damn it lah why one week to econs? why not one week to maths?!!?! haiz...

the best part about today's exam... all the electricity MCQ qns came from the TYS, and i did them early this morning!!! WAHAHAHA so i practically spent about half a minute doing 3 MCQ qns :p wah speed record man hahaha luckily tomorrow's is an afternoon paper, so i can sleep in again, and mug through the night (early morning).

i think i can get at least a D, maybe a C if i'm lucky? oh well... cheers!

another quizzy...

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eXpressive: 5/10
Practical: 5/10
Physical: 3/10
Giver: 3/10

You are a RPIT--Reserved Practical Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Love Geek.

Heh heh -- you love geek! You are weirdly sexy. It doesn't take people a long time to get to know you, but people *think* it takes a long time, because you are as cool and regulated after a year as you are on a first meeting. You don't tend to date casually -- you just suddenly find yourself in long term relationships.

Your approach to conflict is your greatest asset -- it complements almost every other type. You don't express yourself or your feelings in dramatic terms, but you will speak up to those who do. You are generally calm, but capable of ramping up, and you don't give up until the issue is resolved -- this means even the hottest temper or coolest conflict-avoider can feel comfortable pursuing their satisfaction with you. And you don't hold a grudge -- you get through it, and it's done. You rock.

Sure, you like the sex. And you communicate with your partner well, so you're good at it. But it's not something you would make jokes about or bring up in polite company (not that you don't appreciate that kind of humor). You're no prude, but that's just not your style.

You'd make an excellent parent.

You enjoy food and can be a ravenous eater. A good cook will get your attention quickly.

Of the 119357 people who have taken this quiz, 5.3 % are this type.

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well well well... that's interesting... hahaha :p

the first 'other' gauntlet...

econs paper 3 today. it went rather ok i must say, considering i've never written so much for an econs essay in my entire short-lived JC career. used 4 pieces of paper for my 2 essays, and 3 sides for my case study. case study wasn't exactly very uhhh... well there wasn't alot to write lah, just managed to squeeze out a few things at the end. felt good about it... first time ever hahaha it's goooooooooooood :) well at least that's what i perceive it to be... but then again i could be wrong

felt like falling asleep right after the paper. so tired... exams end quicker now in JC, as there are fewer subjects, just that you're subjected to longer periods of air-con in the hall. today i wore my CIBTC white tee inside my shirt, kept me pretty warm throughout, shall do that for subsequent exams, then after exam can just take off the shirt, and leave my white tee on tucked out, so comfortable...

tomorrow got chinese exam, mum is chasing me to study for it... like what the hell is there to study for chinese lah!?!!? even though my chinese isn't all that good, but there's not much to study lah. it's like O level english damn it!!! oh well... shall study for physics then... since i've done more maths than physics so far, and my physics was the worst during mid-years... Cheers!

A quiz...?

Wackiness: 80/100
Rationality: 118/100
Constructiveness: 76/100
Leadership: 94/100

You are a WRCL--Wacky Rational Constructive Leader. This makes you a Golden God.You think fast and have a smart mouth, and you are a hoot to your friends and razorwire to your enemies. You hold a grudge like a brass ring. You crackle. Although you have a leader's personality, you often choose not to lead, as leaders stray too far from their audience. You probably weren't very popular in high school--the joke's on them! You may be a rock star.

Of the 34892 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 6.9 % are this type.

hmmm... as always some parts make sense... and some parts don't. nothing new... cheers!

from kwee...

mr kwee gave all his classes and ex-classes little uhhh... good luck cards with poems on it. mine happened to be on a pink paper... heaven knows why... but here's the poem

Many things are happening,
Always never ending.
Relaxing is an art to learn,
Can you rest yet work and earn?
Unique people can do this,
So can you, I trust thee.

mine was quite cool, and it actually meant something lah, as compared to xuan rui's and vignish's. xuan rui's 1st line was "X marks the spot" :p guess he couldn't find a better word for X. vig's 1st line was rather racist... "Vanish into the night" hahaha i tell you the whole class laughed like hell lah. but kwee claimed it wasn't on purpose, so i guess we'll take his word for it. cheers :)

i study better alone...

went for my first, and probably my last ever night study today. 1st because i never went for one throughout my entire O level and prelim period in SJI, and because i just never went for one in CJ. but today i just decided to go because there ain't no school tomorrow, and i was already staying back in school anywayz. why is it likely to be the last u might ask? well that's because i found myself frequently distracted throughout the course of the "adventure". didn't manage to accomplish much in that 3 hours, sincerely believe i could've done more at home. just too many people around to pull my mind away from the physics TYS in front of my face, and being the person i am when there is alot of movement, i always lift my head up to look at what's going on, when i should actually be looking at my damn books!!! i think i can study better in my room at night, with the window in front of me open, and all i see is darkness. with the room door closed, my ceiling fan on behind me and my mp3 playing. with my room light off, and only the study table light on, almost no distractions, except the on and off sound of bats flying past my window, but that's normal for me already.

if you take a really close look at my life now, it's honestly very VERY messed up. i don't know what i'm doing at times, i make bad decisions now and then, i can't sit down to study properly, can't even ask one of my better friends something that i've wanted to for a while! if you look at it, there's almost nothing that's going right for me now, except the friends that i have in school and my family. other parts of my personal life are just... bad. i don't know how i feel, i don't know what i want, and i don't know what to do. right now all i clearly know is that i want to get to J2, but there are just other things that kick that off the top of my to-do-list now and then, and thus the distractions.

for xin, thanks for the email man. really... thank you very much, appreciate it :) hope things get better for you soon too. cheers :)