everybody means something to someone...

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.

In the room of 200, he asked,

"Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"

And he dropped it and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.

"Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.

No matter what I did to the money,

you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives,

we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt

by the decisions we make and

the circumstances that come our way.

We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or

what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,

you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know,

but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special- Don't EVER forget it."

Cheers! :)

sianzzz...

couldn't go to NY today or to bishan to watch coach play because... i was supposed to stay at home and do my homework. but did i do my homework? i think you can guess lah, don't need me to say...

shoulders are aching from yesterday's gym, right more than left, meaning even though my right shoulder is more developed than my left, the difference is even greater this time!!! damn it! next time i must push my left side more, even if it means looking lobsided!!! stupid weak left side...

went to optician with my dad in the afternoon... short sightedness remains the same, 300 and 350, but estigmatism went up by 50... damn it. but good news, it should go down after next year when i have 2 years of NS, which means no need to study, no need to stare at things close to my face for too long, shiok. but i'm surprised my short sightedness didn't go up, since i've been staring at the comp for wat seems to be longer periods of time nowadays... hmmm...

evening played badminton with the wall for a while, couldn't last very long as my shoulder really started to tense up after a while, so i just stopped earlier than expected. but not bad i can still hit the shuttle quite well hahaha i guess playing with balls and cocks aren't so different after all... (what you thinking?!?!!)

as i predicted got alot of stuff for np in december, and none for vball. but i'm going overseas lah... going to miss out on alot. shiiiiiiiiiiiiittt!!! i guess i can feel a bit better coz my dad is bringing his laptop along, so can still read and reply mails, just the timezone difference lah, alamak i'm talking about stuff that doesn't really link much now. such useless blabber... cheers.

what i know i want...

it's as good as 3 am on a saturday morning, and yet here i am typing. i feel physically tired, but my mind and fingers are quite awake. actually my mind is always like that at this time of the morning. just finished my shower not long ago... and did some self-reflection, and came to the realisation that i don't really entirely know what i want. i also realised that those things i'm quite sure i want, weren't built up overnight, a week, a month, or even a year! it really takes time for things to settle into me, and for me to really truely understand how important they are to me. i can count on one puny little hand the number of things i really absolutely want from my life right now.



i just want my parents to get through life easily and happily. don't have a picture of my sister but i want her to of course be happy with what she's doing in UK now, and come back not regretting a single moment of it.



after close to 5 whole years, i just want that unit shown above, SJI NPCC, to do well in moulding Singaporeans, Josephians, Josephian Police Cadets. it was never easy for the past 5 years, but sometimes looking back and realising what we've accomplished, it was never going to be a walk in the park.






basically just hope that all me friends are just happy lah... tt's all. honestly i don't think i'm a very good friend, coz at times i'm just plain old selfish, and i can also be a dead lazy pig, but then hopefully there are times where i have been there for you, and hopefully made you'll smile. cheers.

gym gym GYM!!!

finally went to the gym today for a proper workout since... sec 3? holy shit tt's a long time hahaha anyway this time went with vball lah. did specific exercises for certain muscles groups. spiking, squats, calf raises, and uhhh dunno wat it's called for biceps and triceps. the part tt's aching the most now is my shoulder and shoulder blade. from supporting the weights on my back lah. but i must say... it felt GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!! hahaha i wanna do it again... gym gym gym hahaha gym craze is coming back to me :p gym gym gym...

anywayz after the trg ate yong tau foo from school. tasted so good after i ate tt horrible tasting one from ghim moh last week hahaha had a nice chat with coach, derek and freddy. coach is quite wise... hahaha but then i guess it's because he's experienced all those things tt he's said lah, so of course he has more to impart to us. he's a good teacher as far as i know lah, trying to teach his students as much as he can.

after tt headed to PA, expecting to see CITs running around frantically changing, or getting equipment, or whatever, just a big mass of people in blue and white running around. but when i got there... it was as if they weren't even having CIBTC today!!! hahaha so i just presumed they were having lessons in a classroom or something, coz they weren't on the parade square either. one thing special about today's visit was that it was very quiet on my part. i only said thank you twice to the guy at the counter, and that's it. walked in, climbed the stairs to the office, put in my cert into her pigeon hole, walked out to the booth, got back my IC and headed straight out. didn't say a single word to anyone else. freaky... hahaha last few times i went there... sure see a few CIs, or an FI around and will just say hi, but this time so empty wor hahaha oh well the good thing is that they painted the damn drill shed. that rusty old thing now has a fresh coat of white paint. looked good from the inside hahaha

shoulders are aching a bit now, could feel it all the way after the gym session. after this gotta head out to sandwin at holland v to change my tennis racket grip, then over to lizz's house for a game. haven't played for ages too... about a year, and with my muscles like tt... wonder how well i'd survive hahaha

i get jealous too easily... i get jealous over things that aren't even mine! i somehow, in my screwed up little brain, believe that it's mine to have, to protect, then it's so easy for a sense of jealousy to creep in. the green-eyed monster. sad...

cheers!

can't fight ze moonlight...

just dug out the coyote ugly movie soundtrack from my sister's drawer, and remembered that i love this song man hahaha catchy tune and meaningful lyrics... enjoy! :) cheers

just put a * if it's true...

01. i have a cell phone. *
02. i have friends who used me.
03. i am an only child.
04. i am a shopoholic.
05. i love dangly earrings
06. i have smoked a cigarette before.
07. i love cold weather.
08. i'm obsessed with the computer. *
09. i have shot a gun before. * (npcc rocks!!! in fact i've fired 2 different types of guns)
10. i can't live without music. *
11. i have no tolerance of ignorant people. *
12. i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
13. i'll be in this town forever.
14. i've been to 5 other countries. *
15. i get annoyed easily. *
16. i eventually want kids. *
17. i have neat handwriting.
18. i have more than a few horrible memories. *
19. i am addicted to chocolate.
20. i am an atheist.
21. my parents are strict. *
22. i love airplane rides. *
23. i love taking pictures. *
24. i hate girls who are fake. * (hate guys who are fake as well)
25. i can be mean when i want to. * (think np trg)
26. my parents care about my grades. *
27. one of my best friends is a guy. *
28. i have way too many purses.
29. i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
30. i am easy to talk to. *
31. i would never eat raw fish. *
32. i cry easily.
33. i hate it when people are late. *
34. i procrastinate. *
35. i love winter.
36. i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. i love to sleep. *
38. i wish i were smarter.*
39. i'm afraid of flying.
40. i hate drama. *
41. i bite my nails.
42. i have been on an 8 hour drive. *
43. i never fight with my parents.
44. i love the beach. *
45. i have never had the chicken pox.
46. i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
47. i can't control my emotions.
48. i have a best friend. *
49. i have moved more than once.
50. i truly love my friends. *
51. i have braces.
52. i love to write. * (if you consider blogging writing lah)
53. i have never broken a bone.
54. i agree with racist people.
55. i hate my computer.
56. i love guys that play guitar.
57. i state the obvious. *
58. i'm a happy person. *
59. i love to dance. *
60. i love to sing. *
61. i love cleaning my room.
62. i tend to get jealous very easily. *
63. i love cute underwear.
64. i have gotten high before. * (eh wait high on what...)
65. i love night better than day. *
66. i have been on the phone for over 5hrs
67. i don't like to study for tests. * (who the hell does?!!?)
68. i love God. *
69. i am too forgiving. *
70. i have horrible sense in direction.
71. i miss elementary school.
72. i have had a girlfriend before.
73. i'm a daddy's boy.
74. i love kisses on my forehead.
75. i love the color pink.
76. i love to sew.
77. my eye color changes.
78. i should see a therapist. * (i need lots of help)
79. i played on a guys sports team. * (currently playing actually...)
80. i become stressed easily.*
81. i hate liars. *
82. i like comfy sweatpants.
83. i can play the piano. * (would spend more time on it if i could)
84. i love the smell of rain. *
85. i love my family. *
86. i hate needles.
87. i am a perfectionist.*
88. i always wanted to learn to play the drums. * (but i'm stuck on the piano)
89. i hate the feeling of failure.*
90. i have friends in other countries. *
91. i know how to cook. * (outdoor cooking :p)
92. i can be quite selfish. *
93. at times, i still act like a little kid. *
94. i have food allergies.
95. i love little kids.
96. i love to read.
97. i wish i were more motivated for school.
98. i love getting stuff in the mail. *
99. i have problems with letting go of old feelings. *
100. i hate being alone. *
101. i love summer. *
102. i love the weekends.*
103. i love black eyeliner.
104. i think i'm pretty.
105. i type with one hand.
106. i live in a one story house.
107. i wear make-up.
108. i have nv been on an underground subway.
109. i can't swim.
110. i have bad memory.
111. i go to church. *
112. i sing in the shower. *
113. i have never been camping.
114. i hate cheerleaders.
115. i have rode on a motor bike all by myself

bagus!!!

had vball trg at SPANS again this morning. the plan to meet sophie on the bus and jessie at the busstop kinda worked... besides the fact tt sophie just missed the bus hahaha and jessie told me a really interesting story about her dog... won't forget tt man :p

so we reached SPANS kinda late, and the 1st time that i'm late, everyone else is early lah!!! wth man hahaha oh well at least for the 1st time i didn't help to set up the net hahaha so slack!!!

main highlight of trg... 3 v 3. wasn't very good lah, can be improved upon. standing still and spiking is very different from jumping and spiking. i need to improve my gauging of the damn blue, yellow and white ball :p after trg was more fun. played 6 v 6 with the rotation and all tt stuff. somehow whenever it came to my turn to serve, the girls were always in the middle, so somehow all my balls flew to them hahaha doing that gained my team alot of points lah :p i think i had one successful spike, and one successful block (sorry shamus). kinda semi-spiked a few over lah... was just on my wrong side of my body. but i'm glad that i can actually play now lah hahaha

after tt ate macs at toa payoh interchange before heading to bang's house to get his maths. on the way there it started raining, so i was kinda upset lah, thinking i had to wait at the busstop till the rain stopped. but low and behold when i passed the holland v stop, the rain stopped hahaha damn happy. at PG, was climbing up the slope to his house lah. suddenly could feel a cramp coming on my left thigh. so i eased up a bit... then soon my right thigh also got it. wah basket was standing on the slope muttering to myself lah hahaha couldn't even walk lah!!! damn that hill... so after standing still for about 5 minutes and constantly rubbing my thighs i could walk again hahaha sounds like i was paralysed or something :p eh wait... i was!

so now i'm at home... looking through some NP docs. come to think of it this is the 1st document i've seen which they have made by themselves hahaha got a feeling that that's not good... oh well shall be working more closely with them very soon. Cheers!

it's been a while...

last blogged on friday, so i shall just start with saturday's events then. saturday morning met up with jeremy for his extra PT, ran 4 rounds, did 100 crunches, 60 pushups and 60 dips. quite refreshing for me, but he was kinda sweating hahaha

after that hung around for a while waiting for huishan, then i passed her her pink cat with no eyes after a fish & chips at tanglin cafe. got a few more jabs and pinches then she went for trg and i went to meet lizz and becca for badminton

met them on the bus on the way to clementi, dozed off while they sat behind me chatting. at clementi, the place was full out, no space till 10. so after that being the tired me, they went to have KFC and i came home... to sleep hahaha

sunday uhhh... oh yeah was going to pick my grandma up from the hairdressers, so while waiting my dad and i went to buy duck rice. right next to the place there was one of those huge tents set up for a funeral. but the interesting/scary part of it was that there were a whole load of guys there, all wearing plain black shirts. some of them were quite big and burly, with tatoos on their arms. 1st thing that came to my mind was mafia gang... hahaha highly unlikely lah, but there must've been some reason why they were ALL wearing plain black t-shirts.

at night spent an hour on the phone. felt quite good lah hahaha i mean in my entire life since the day i was born, i've never like spent more than half an hour on the phone with a person? and the previous person who i spent so much time on the phone with was my OC, coz he was going on and on and on... hahaha feels good talking to you lah :)

monday went to SPANS again for vball trg. i was quite happy with it, but overall i still suck lah. during the game we played at the end i screwed up my 1st 2 serves. i failed to block clar's light spike, and i couldn't do my centre spiking job properly. but towards the end my serves improved and i managed to gather enough confidence to do a few floaters over the net. somehow that training was really tiring, maybe coz of the upteen times i was spiking the ball against the wall, kinda drained all the energy out of me. after trg spent some time using my left arm to throw the ball against the wall. reason being my right shoulder is a hell lot bigger and stronger then my left one, so much so that when i lean back on a chair, my body is slanted towards the left. so obviously i'm trying to correct it hahaha

after that was supposed to meet mad and the rest at sentosa, but i didn't go in the end. was really damn tired. but i felt damn bad because i was supposed to bring the volleyball for them to use, and i found out that in the end they had to resort to borrowing... :(

instead of sentosa, since the rest of the vballers were going to far east, i just tagged along so that i could have lunch. after lunch soph went to the t-shirt place at far east to order the vball shirt. the place is called chikos, and i heard a rather intruiging story from germaine about it hahaha all i can say is tt guy is damn lucky... not because of what he did, but because he managed to get away with it. after that we'll sat on the benches in the basement of far east outside guardian. i kinda dozed off there, just leaned back and KO-ed on the chair. felt better after that.

today, went to sji to meet jeremy again. couldn't run today coz he was having an uneasy stomach, so didn't want to push it. so we just stuck to doing stationary PT. 100 pushups, 100 crunches, 100 dips, and 50 leg raises. he said that on sunday his arms were trembling due to the dips, don't know how come they were trembling the day after the exercise lah, but i guess that means that it's working!!! hahaha had some trouble doing the leg raises coz my lower left back hurt a little when my legs went up at first, so i just leaned my body a bit to the left and it was fixed hahaha after that trodded off with evanescence in my ears and came home. for the 1st time in a very long time i didn't fall asleep in the bus. just kinda stoned all the way hahaha guess the exercise was refreshing for me lah

somehow my life seems rather... confined to vball and npcc hahaha oh well... it's my life, and i do what i want with it. i guess it's ok lah... not fantastic, but not that horrible either. not like i feel like commiting suicide or anything :p cheers!

not a very good job...

attended the final sji np trg for the year today. started off bad... they were late! after that couldn't really help it but had to do something to them lah. after that just did more and more screwing... wasn't a very good day. somehow everything they did seemed to be wrong. after their test i kinda blew my top a bit. but not to the most serious extent. maybe shouldn't have said some words, but at that moment i was really cheesed off with the way that they were behaving. if you ask me... it's really, really late to still have to talk to them about things like this, my real honest opinion is that this situation is nearly unsalvagable, but i'm not going to give up... yet.

anywayz taking cue from my sis and lee pin, changed my tag board to a chatterbox, seeing as how tag board just isn't working nowadays, hopefully it doesn't screw up too.

cheers.

from gwen's cam... those who turned up for cjc vball outing on monday. it was a hot day hahaha

Cheers!

wah damn shiok...

went to chalet yesterday with xin, neo, shaun. gc and brendan. that bugger neo couldn't stay over because he had ncc duties the next day... oh well. it was really quite messy lah, but who cares there were only the 6 of us!!! hahaha so gc brought along 40 chicken wings, a packet of chicken thighs and some pork, about 20 satay and uhhh... can't remember how many otah. satay and otah was devoured in an instant. but the rest took some time. so in order to finish as much food as possible we BBQ-ed for both dinner and supper. the supper one didn't work out too well, i think we put too much charcoal in with the fire starters, oh well!

so basically in short, what we did was bbq, watch tv, play daidee, walk around, and talk alot... alot alot... really alot until cannot believe how much we talked man hahaha listened to a very nice mp3 from xin's phone, author was unknown, but title was vulgar. if you wanna hear it just ask me, as it really is quite vulgar hahaha but the more we listened to it, the cuter and funnier it got lah, don't ask me why :p

supper lasted from 2.30 - 4.30, and i went to bed at about 5. woke up at 6.30, took a shower and left early for SPANS for vball trg. didn't wake the rest up, just quietly left, and that big xin was lying on my phone charger lah, so i forgot to take it hahaha only realised when i had reacher pasir ris MRT. at first i felt quite seh... stomach felta bit weird, and legs felt a bit stiff. lack of sleep lah i guess... towards the end it got better. my spiking today really sucked lah... eh wait, it's never really been very good in the 1st place, so yah :( i think my whole spiking technique is wrong lah... arm not fully outstretched, ball not in middle of body, body not facing front, aiyah all kinds of shit lah. quite hard to correct. at the end for PT, we did 80 pushups, 120 sit ups, 120 half squats and 200 calf raises. wasn't so bad lah... i've felt worst hahaha

after that "ran" off to orchard to meet bren to get my charger back. thanks to him for helping me get that as well... really appreciate it :) walked to BK at wheelock and bought some fries while i waited for my mum, who cleverly missed the turning and therefore had to do a really big U-ey :p

last np trg of the year on friday, and so happens that coach isn't free on that day, so looks i'll be going for it hahaha i feel hungry again, kinda... my stomach is starting to play tricks on me. cheers...and where is my friggin' tag board!?!?!?!?

tired...

sentosa today was tiring, mainly because of the heat i guess. the sand was hot, but not unbearable, the air was hot, got used to it after a while, but the fatigue from all the volleyball and stuff just got to me. had to come home and rest after that. couldn't go out for dinner with the rest after that. anyway those who came... derek, gwen, avelyn, germaine, sophie, sandra, jessie, joanna, shamus and nigel. shamus and nigel arrived at 12 plus lah!!! as usuall... but this time late by 5 whole hours lah!!! don't know what these guys do lah!!! always so damn friggin' late...

oh well... not as if we did much else after they came anywayz hahaha spent most of the time playing volleyball, this being a volleyball outing hahaha dug and dug and dug, not bad lah at least i can play now!!! :p towards the end of the day derek kicked the ball and it ended up in the tree. so i just kept throwing balls up at it. altogether more balls got stuck up there, and it came down with a bit of shaking, the one that went up 1st took a bit more effort, but it was actually simple physics lah dunno why i didn't see it earlier, was too busy trying the non-brainy method hahaha that shows what my brain is becoming, or rather, has become.

after the whole thing those left went a bit crazy with gwen's camera... just snapping and snapping and snapping. nigel is mad lah... so shy when the camera is at him, but when the camera is kept he keeps asking us to get it out :p took a hell lot of group photos lah, can't wait to get them from gwen.

other than that... i'm just tired. chalet tomorrow, not sure whether my parents allowing me to stay over or not, no confirmed answer yet even up till now, wednesday got vball training at SPANS again, not sure whether i'll go or not.

oh yah also today somehow the topic of me being posted to Police NS suddenly popped up with my parents, and they were saying that because i'm from NPCC and because i'm chinese, i'll get pushed up the ranks really quickly. then i was thinking, which would i rather want... more freedom or more cash... tricky question lah. coz the higher up you go, the more you get but the more responsibilities you've got to shoulder, and i've never liked having so much, but i've always just beared with it and gotten through it, usually because i didn't have a choice lah.

oh well got one more year till then, so don't need to worry about that so much. look forward to getting through this week 1st hahaha cheers!

visiting the Bishanites...

hmmm sounds weird... argh who cares. met up with soph and jess opposite ulu pandan to take bus to bishan mrt. arrived there at arnd 8, went to macs to have a 2nd round of breakfast. i shouldn't have bought anything lah... in the end had to help both of them finish their hotcakes and hashbrowns, felt so damn full after that. in the end briefing only started at 9.30, and we only set off at about 9.45. quite late lah. but oh well... in my little group was he jia, wing man, germaine, joanna and derek. altogether we covered 3 blocks, and had to compete with a few kalang guni people who were roaming as well scavanging for easy picks.

managed to collect quite alot of stuff, newspapers, textbooks, a whole load of clothes, a few toys, as well as i little toy violin which i played with for a while, but to no avail, nothing new of course. right at the end the lorry carrying all the things came to our block, and so after tossing everything into the back, we hopped into it, and took a ride to the final meeting point. wah it's really cool riding in the back of that lorry man hahaha great view and feeling, especially since we were all sitting on a huge pile of old newspapers :p on the way there we passed a whole load of people walking towards the final checkpoint, and we just merrily waved at them hahaha that was both cool and cruel, as it was kind of a long walk. back at the huge dumpster herge and i stayed back on the lorry to help them unload it. we just threw and threw and threw, heck care where it landed. very good stress reliever man hahaha if you do that for a damn long time i tell you your back will be either damn strong, or broken :p

right now i feel like i'm drifting yet again... drifting away from my friends. i realised i kinda miss my class, after seeing quite a few of them around today. but yet somehow i feel like i'm drifting further away from them as whole, not communicating with them as much as i would like to i guess. sometimes i wonder of the impression i leave on people, whether it is the kind where once they don't see me they forget me, or whether it's the kind where they won't miss me right away... but after a while they feel that something is missing in their lives. i know some of you might say that impressions are not that important, but somehow to me they are lah. i think coz of my npcc background, and constantly thinking about how the unit looked as a whole, kinda got to me personally lah.

i don't know what i'm doing... i don't know what you're doing... and that's the way life goes. for now... cheers i guess.

same old routine...

today had vball training... again hahaha the grandstand area was quite well utilised today. at first choir people were playing soccer (weird eh? :p), there were bball ppl, judo girls had PT. so it was kinda crowded at first. but after a while the chior people left, so we had plenty of space as usual.

weather was blazing hot today... felt like npcc all over again, with the exception of balls flying around. balls never flew during np training, only after it hahaha you know... soccer...

anywayz coach worked on our underhand first, and i think that was a good thing to do since our 1st ball wasn't always all that good. yah i guess it did work out in the end, with him saying that he was "quite happy" with our performance today. right at the end did 30 pullups, and threw a 3 kg medicine ball about the distance of 3m 60 times. that was kinda fun i guess hahaha, albeit a bit tiring, but it was fun.

after training stayed back to play a couple of games. overall i think we've improved lah. i personally felt a bit more confident about standing up front, and having balls served, dug, tapped and spiked at me. lucky we were playing with the girls net so i could get a couple of clean clear spikes hahaha quite cheat lah... but it felt good :p i had to roll once in order to save the ball, and i didn't get scraped or anything lah!!! the only pain i felt was when shamus ran into my body hahaha wouldn't want anyone to do that to me again. lucky my arm was there otherwise my side wouldn't exactly be a side anymore

i feel kinda tired, but at the same time i feel kinda energetic. can't wait for next week. monday go sentosa, tuesday and wednesday got chalet with the guys. should be fun... wonder if they'll be buying any booze... hahaha i want to play my piano again later!!! sadly everyone i've told so far doesn't believe that i play the piano lah. do i look so uhhh... un-piano-ish? sorry can't think of a word right now hahaha oh well hopefully i can finish learning 4 songs by end of december. cheers!

i'm bored...

so i'll just put up the songs that are currently residing in my computer album, there's actually quite alot, but i like all of them :)

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
One Last Breath - Creed
Broken - Seether ft. Amy Lee
In The Shadows - The Rasmus
Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park
My Immortal - Evanescence
Sex Bomb - Tom Jones & Mousse T
Mario Takes A Walk - Jesse Cook
Someday - Nickleback
Woman Trouble - Artful Dodger and Craig David
My December - Linkin Park
From The Inside - Linkin Park
Sway - Michael Buble
Acid Rain - Liquid Tension Experiment
The Reason - Hoobastank
The Only - Static X
Open Your Eyes - Alter Bridge
Numb - Linkin Park
Flight Of The Bumblebee - Maksim
Power Rangers - SJIMB Renaissance performance 2004

yeah that's all of it. some are kinda old, but who cares hahaha actually got quite a good mix of loud and messy songs plus slow rock pieces... at least they suit the moods i'm usually in. cheers.

something's wrong with me...

or is it really me? could just be the surroundings... ahhh i don't think i'm in a very suitable mood to be blogging now, coz my brain is kinda zonked from training. but i'm quite sure that there's something wrong with me... shouldn't be doing some of the things that i'm doing, but somehow i still do :x

anywayz training today was ok i guess. right at the beginning we rolled around on the ground again, so my knees and hips are all messed up again, still hurting from monday's training. but thanks goodness it only hurts if you press them, and at least i can still walk. hopefully i can get used to this rolling thingy soon, and also that we don't have to do it too often. had a friendly match today with a team from mixed schools, and at first we were really quite nervous lah, towards the end things got better i guess. still got alot of things to improve on for my game, still very inconsistent... its either i can do it damn well and properly, or i mess up completely. sucks man... but there was one interesting part about training today, and that was when coach was tossing balls for us to dive at. there was one where i dived, and i rolled, or at least tried to roll, but when i lay on my back, i slid along the floor coz my back was SOOOOO wet that i couldn't roll over completely hahaha so i left this really long streak of sweat on the floor that was very clearly visible, and apparently i made a loud 'thump' when i landed on the ground for that one :p but surprisingly when u really go for a ball, it doesn't seem to hurt as much as when u just practice rolling with no ball around, i guess when there's something to aim at, your body will naturally curve or bend itself in a certain way so that you can go for the ball easily.

after tt met sf, hs and cheryl at macs. only ate 6 piece nuggets instead of 9, coz if i eat too much after training my stomach will get all wonky and stuff. was so tired that after tt i fell asleep on the table hahaha when i woke up, since sf was sitting opposite me, her pencil box became the centre of my attention. was doing all kinds of things with her stationery... i was really bored too lah, and i had to stay awake. so you gotta do what you gotta do... and i know i gotta go to the toilet, so cheers!

i'm getting blur...

i keep forgetting what day of the week it is nowadays. like just a few minutes ago it took me a while to remember that today was monday. hmmmm... must be the lack of sleep over the past few days

so uhhh... last friday np trg after chinese As, while the rest of the class was out lanning. part of life... anyway after tt ben and i joined them for dinner (which lasted for about 5 minutes) then we went to watch sak tale. sat in the 2nd row lah... damn it. lucky the screen wasn't too high up. after that went to play pool. by then was a bit zonked out lah, coz never go np trg for so long so felt a bit old hahaha

sat... can't remember what i did... see what i mean by i'm getting forgetful!

sunday met the koala to buy the hamster's bday present. mr koala had to wear this bloody pink shirt... that i found damn funny, best part is his mum bought it for him lah damn it!!! cool mum man hahaha then went to centrepoint macs and just sat down and talk talk talk... bought a couple of cats-with-no-eyebrows for a couple of people as well.

today morning went to SPANS at toa payoh for vball training. we got kicked out of school due to A levels. don't see why lah... i mean the vball courts are so far away from school... waste money and time. anyway at least we got a feeling of indoor vball. coach today taught us how to properly dive for the ball, and roll after that so that we won't grase our knees or whatever. the main one is called sausage roll, of all things sausage roll. anyway derek was so smart that the first round we went trying it he already started bleeding, and got a blister on this hand hahaha bloody genius. i didn't get any blisters or grases or bruises or whatever... just a few aching joints from falling on the ground. they only ache coz of the 1st few that i did... after that it never really hurt again. now it's just... left hamstring a bit pain from the jump training... and right knee and left elbow hurts... and right hip a bit also lah. i think i should be fine by wednesday... i BETTER be fine by wednesday. if not i won't be able to run after any balls, which would be very bad

evening met up with josh and cheryl to buy her bday dinner. ate at bleeks i think the place is called. me and josh at fish and chips, and cheryl ate some funny salad with prawns. ahhh well sorry it wasn't very exciting hahaha but at least i managed to do my evil laugh into her ear again hahaha

tired ah... need to sleep more... but always stay up late at night to do don't know what crappy shit... oh wellz i just remembered that i need to find my maths homework. don't know where the whole stack of questions went... shit!!! argh... cheers ppl...

playing 2nd fiddle...

been doing that for a while. am i going to put up with it? for now i guess so, but for how long? i really don't know... situations and circumstances change... so i shall see. cheers!

in case you're wondering what on earth those flags on top are... well they're mainly our school colours.

(from L-R): NCC (Land), Pelandok Scouts, NCC (Air), Singapore Flag, Founder's Banner, SJI School Flag, NPCC, SJI Military Band, SJAB.

basically each uniform group in sji has our own colours that are blessed once a year. so they're quite "sacred" in a way lah... they're only used for display and for SJI Annual Parade for colours contingent, otherwise they're kept safely in a store somewhere... i believe it's Bro. Mic's office, not too sure. cheers!

my (unprofessional) guide to pushups...

bear with me... i'm bored... i'd rather do this than chinese.

in primary school... we struggled to do even standard pushups... our butt was always high up in the air, or u were, as we called it in sji, screwing the floor. so in primary school we were doing sub-standard standard pushups.

then came secondary school... where the pull-up craze began on a very small scale. and also thanks to someone called Mr. Tang Wing Kee who gave us pushups as punishment for mental sums and a whole list of other uhhh... bad habits, we soon could all do standard standard pushups hahaha then eventually came along the things called diamond and spider pushups which were of course of higher difficulty. by end of sec 2... commando pushups were introduced to me. only one of my friends could do it... the rest of us just stood and watched an awe :p (altogether now... aawwwwww)

then eventually came along the commando spiders and commando diamonds, which up till now some people still have difficulty doing. hmmm then came the little "walks" we had with pushups. there was the crocodile walk... and the little bouncy thingy that i've got no idea what it's name is. so it's just the bouncy thingy... basically u just gotta get from point A to point B by doing pushups and moving... yeah. later one came one arm pushups, which would results in one arm being a hell lot bigger than the other hahaha

somewhere along the way came knuckle pushups. and if u can do commando knuckle pushups... i'd say you were nuts, coz i've never seen anyone crazy enough to try it. the of course there's even the more absurd pinky pushup which the late bruce lee showed us how to do. those are generally known as finger pushups i guess

so just a little time-line of how pushups evolved in my life :p

sub-standard standard pushups ==> standard pushups ==> diamond and spider pushups ==> walking thingys ==> commando standard pushups ==> one arm pushups ==> knuckle pushups ==> commando diamond and spider pushups ==> commando knuckles* ==> finger pushups*

*are impossible in my lifetime... unless i've got metal for knuckles... hmmm maybe if i became wolverine... that's an interesting thought. hmmm... actually i've never tried commando diamonds and spiders... and i can't really do proper one arms yet... oh well hahaha i'm still young (kinda...) and my elbows aren't sqeaking yet, neither are my shoulders, so i guess that means i can still try hahaha

that's my unprofessional guide to pushups... if yours differs, well good for you, that's why it's unprofessional hahaha cheers!

it's over!!!

WAHAHAHAHA so happy now... not only because it's over, but because our presentation went on quite smoothly. there was no real problems, it went on real fluently. not bad considering we only practiced twice hahaha but the questions that mr. ho posed to us were tricky i must say. manyun had some problem with hers, could. derek wasn't talking with his usual hand actions, instead his hands were behind his back the whole time fiddling with his shirt. wiz and xr were ok lah... me as usual could've spoken more slowly, with more pauses in between. haiz... nervous-ness does have its effects. damn it i went to the toilet twice before the presentation lah!!! hahaha it would've been alot worst without those oh-so-comforting trips :p

there's training tomorrow, but i can't go coz my mum won't allow me to, saying tt i'll be too tired. but vball trainings are never really that tiring lah, or at least as compared to npcc trainings i've had before where i couldn't even walk to the toilet to change. so miss 2 out of 3 training this week. sucks...

will be ultra-relieved after friday when that damn chinese paper is over. i better pass man, so tt it'll be my last chinese paper in my ENTIRE LIFE!!! anywayz while everyone goes out to party after that, me bren and ben will be in sji, wearing a different type of all blue. oh well common affair during the holz now. i really hope that vball training doesn't end up on fridays after this week, if it does... shit. then gotta choose between np and vball... honestly i'd rather go for np, but vball is getting more interesting these days. damn it lah!!! ggrrrrr...

i want to sleep... but i also want to play computer... i also feel like exercising... but i don't feel like studying chinese... hmmm... anywayz music is back so i'm happy hahaha cheers!

just... a lil' bit... further...

PW will be all over tomorrow. in approximately 14 hours... 7 months of pw-ing will be all over. whoosh... can't wait man. but looking at the PW folder in my comp... quite alot of work went into it man. of course nothing compared to sec 3/4 and all the npcc docs lah... but it's still quite alot of work hahaha i must say that researching on budget airlines was indeed interesting, as i did manage to learn more about budget airlines, but after this will i continue to read up on it? not intentionally hahaha so it's like everything we've read up for our project ends on the day of the oral presentation, no continuous chain... in other words... a very plain waste of our time hahaha

at another crossroad... here i go again. cheers.

training...

it was quite interesting today. started out formation today... got the centre or spiking position. but couldn't really spike properly today lah... was much better with just receiving the serves. but training in formation is tiring... more so than those usual independant drills... but it's a hell lot more fun.

later gotta chiong PW... still gotta work on all my research. i think it should be fine. where has all my music gone?!?!!? cheers!