it's ended?!?!

it's the 31st of december 2004, the end of yet another leap year. i think it's fitting that i reflect on the year gone by, since it is indeed my 1st year out of sji after 4 wonderful years there.

start on the last 3 days 1st lah. wednesday met mad for supposedly 3 movies. O12, fockers and national treasure. we managed to catch the 1st and last one, because fockers was only showing after 7 at both cinemas we went to, and we both had to go home for dinner. O12 is cool, smart movie. i like this kind of movies, coz right at the end you just go... "OH!" then a while later you go... "woahhhh..." hahaha national treasure was exciting sia. action packed, and i like history as well, so that's another reason why i like the movie. also having recently read Angels & Demons by Dan Brown, managed to draw a few relationships to a few of the names mentioned, so i was quite awake hahaha

yesterday went for class chalet at downtown east in pasir ris. 2nd chalet during this holz. 1st one if you'll read earlier was with sji guys lah. by the afternoon most of the people who were coming had already come. i see if i can remember... from t19... me, louis, derek, joshua, wee koon, xuan rui, vignesh, clarrisa, tini, cheryl, shufang, man yun, elisa. yeah tt's all from t19. got ppl from other class also lah, moose, marcus goh, nigel, mao qing, ben chen, ben tay and don. so as u can see that's quite alot of people. played xbox, daidee, blackjack, and talked lots of cock in the afternoon. when the girls played xbox ah... i learnt a very important lesson. never EVER on any circumstances, let girls play games which involves 2 people fighting. reason being? they scream so damn much, that i felt like my ear drums were going to burst. i mean we were in an enclosed room, doors closed, and just the tv on, and they're there screaming and screaming, taking turns every 2 seconds or so when they get hit hahaha it's so bloody amusing lah, all i could do was laugh out loud... but curse inside me :p

just as they were setting up the fire, ben and i left for mr ghazali's house for his farewell dinner. he's FINALLY retiring from sji npcc, after saying that he was going to retire every year since i was in like... sec 2? hahaha but yah his presence will be missed. was my OC for 3 years, adjutant for 2, so obviously i've worked with him quite a few times, working on projects and stuff, just getting advice on certain things lah. it was... interesting i should say... working with a character like him :p

so anywayz at his house met up with, as glenn puts it, the "old guards of sji npcc" hahaha lots of "old" people there hahaha from oldest fo youngest (by year only)... mr ghazali, mr lee, eric (HO from sec 1-3), jack (CI sec 1-3), chee ching, yong yao (sec 1 squad commander, CI when in sec 2 and 3), yi xiang (NCO in sec 2, CI in sec 3 and 4), calvin, glenn & kah wee (NCO sec 3, CI Sec 4 and this year), me, brendan, ben tay, ronald and johnsten. as you can see... everyone whose name is in front of mine is older than me, and that's a long way back hahaha but it's good to see them lah, the oldies as i call them hahaha about 5 of them are in NS now, so couldn't come out yesterday because they were stuck in camp. wah imagine... if one day all the past and present CIs of sji npcc got together with the only 2 officers around when CIs started functioning... the raw power and aura filling up the room sia hahaha i would feel so... honoured, coz i mean these people would've screwed the hell out of me as a cadet lah, but then in the end all i have for them is respect lah, coz they bothered to come back to do their little extra bit to help.

after all gathering at the house, we headed to a nearby seafood hawker centre and just ate and ate. sat with HO eric and mr ghazali, and the other "younger" ones hahaha managed to "extract" some information from mr ghazali about the rumour of girls coming to sji, and there'll never be girls in sji!!! WOOHOO!!! hahaha it's just a misconception lah i guess. oh well glad i got that one out of the way.

so after the dinner and talk, headed back to mr ghazali's house to watch kill bill vol. 1. wah it's damn bloody, but so bloody until it looks like some japanese anime in real life, that it gets so funny, with fountains of blood everywhere. i mean u'd need to have super duper high blood pressure for your blood to squirt, i mean explode, out like a fountain when your head gets sliced off lah!!! hahaha so gross tt it's funny. but as mr lee said, girls will never enjoy this kind of shows, only guys can fully appreciate it's lameness :p

had to leave before the end of the movie in order to catch the last few trains that were still headed to pasir ris. so bren went home, and ben and i headed back to downtown east. after that... the t20 guys got drunk, so drunk that they were playing around in bed damn it! not that kind of playing lah... but just... cannot go to sleep tt kind of playing. made so much friggin' noise. i tell you if we recorded the entire conversation, we could've sold it on the internet and made a profit lah!!! damn friggin' funny wat they were all saying, but damn friggin' irritating as well. vig and i played xbox till like 3 am, when we got really tired, and we TRIED to go to sleep, but to no avail until 4+.

woke up to a rainy day. and according to pang tze wei, his theory is that due to the tsunami, all the water has evaporated and blown over to singapore, causing it to rain more here. well u've heard of the big bang theory... and you've just witnessed the bang theory, unfortunately this one seems quite full of shit :p everytime we wanted to leave the chalet, it started to rain. and our slippers were outside so we got wet, and clean shoes to wear home hahaha after that came straight home lah, not much, just that it rain rain rain :p

ok this is going to be a long entry. oh well...

anywayz this year has been... eventful. last year was eventful as well, but the type of events are just very different. this year lots of people struggled to find themselves, seeked the way they were supposed to take, simply because it's a whole new environment, and lots of people in CJ are from single-sex secondary schools, so it just gets more interesting in JC hahaha if you were actually bored enough to flip back through my archives to my entries from december 2003, u'd probably realise most of what i was worried about, really didn't come to fruition at all :p so i kinda worried for nothing, but really, what next year holds in store for me, i'll never know. don't really want to guess anymore, coz it doesn't really help at all.

but this year for me, it's been fun. met loads of new people whom i love alot. life would've been so much more boring without them, coz i'd have fewer people to bully, right shufang? ;) so far she's the only one who can put up with all my bullshit lah. don't know how she does it either... but i can't help but wonder how different life would be if i was in another JC, say SA or AJ... would i be the same person i am at this moment in time? would i have developed in this year the same way? would i have joined the same CCA? would i have made the same kind of friends? i'll never know... but one cannot help but wonder.

unfortunately, this year for the world... to put it simply... has been f-ed up. war, disease, natural disasters, everything bad u can think of has taken place this year. it's cost millions of lives all over the world, and the death toll is still rising even to this very minute! quite a screwed up world we live in don't u agree?

about the recent tsunami, i was thinking that if something like this happened say 1500 years ago, people would've probably thought that they had angered some gods, and that the rumbling of the earth was expression of their dissatisfaction and the towers of water would be them just teaching man their lesson, giving people the idea to fear god. lucky we don't live in that age anymore... but yet some people say that governments did not have any prepared action plans in case situations like this occured, but really, if governments had to come up with action plans for every kind of disaster on every scale, i really wonder how many plans they'd have! and yes... many people have lost their lives, but what has happened could in no way have been prevented, some can blame the scientists for not being able to calculate and foresee this disaster, but it was inevitable lah, u might see me as unsympathetic after reading this, but what's been done has been done, we'll should not mourn the losses for too long, it does us no good, we'll should instead help out the survivors in any way possible, which is more or less what is going on right now as i can see from today's papers.

oh well since this entry is already so long, and i'd applaud you for reading this far, might as well just put some song lyrics as well. quite fitting for the end of the year for me i'd say...

~~~

Linkin Park - Faint

I am
little bit of loneliness
a little bit of disregard
a handful of complaints
but i can't help the fact
that everyone can see these scars
i am
what i want you to want
what i want you to feel
but it's like
no matter what i do
i can't convince you
to just believe this is real
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got

i can't faint
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored

i am
a little bit insecure
a little unconfident
cause you don't understand
i do what i can
but sometimes i don't make sense
i am
what you never want to say
but i've never had a doubt
it's like no matter what i do
i can't convince you
for once just to hear me out
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got

i can't faint
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored

no
hear me out now
you're gonna listen to me
like it or not right now (2X)

i can't feel
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored

i can't faint
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored

i can't faint
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored

~~~

carpe diem. seize the day. it's new year's eve!!! :)

i always think too much...

always think of the worst case scenarios... then will just over-react, simply blowing things way out of proportion. i need to relax... to calm down... and basically... to breathe. carpe diem.

it all comes back to me in the end...

is it so?

you kept me awake last night, but i don't think you even knew... am i dead to you?

counting down to school...

school starts in exactly a weeks time. sian ji bua!!! don't want school to start sia... feels like this holz is not long enough, even though it was longer than the O level one. hmmm...

so today supposed to go BANG's house to swim, but he had 404 class lunch, so never swim in the end. woke up at 12, eat lunch, slack around, around 3 went out for a jog coz it was kinda cloudy. jialat man my legs cannot move. never run for too long liaoz. volleyball doesn't encompass running, so i'm all stiff. after tt got home took a shower, played railroad tycoon for a while then left for somerset.

met neo, shaun, gc, xin and sean tan!!! he came back from UK for the holz lah, and i haven't seen him for a year, so must go man hahaha he's grown taller, but skinnier. he sounds the same, and acts the same way, so nothing really missed hahaha went to taka to eat seoul garden... lots of meat. meat meat meat hahaha only a few fishballs and crabsticks here and there. oh yah and the occasional sausage. there was beef, chicken, fish. the typical meats lah.

after that went to atrium to play lan. i suck at it, nothing new hahaha too humji :p or just plain lousy aiming... but i did manage to kill ppl by chionging into their faces hahaha

after tt they'll went to swissotel to find TPL, but i had to come home, better safe than sorry lah. still wonder what she was doing there hahaha

school starting soon ah!!! sian!!! but at least can see friends again hahaha imagine... 1st day of school... a sea of white. such wonderful memories... hahaha carpe diem!

this is what happens when i'm bored...

WANTED!!!

HAVE YOU SEEN THIS MAN?!?!

HE'S...



GOT A DAO FACE...



GOT A BIG MOUTH...



DARK AND MYSTERIOUS...



GOT A BIG NOSE WHEN CRINKLED...



GOT MATRIX LIKE MOVEMENTS...



AND WRINKLES ON HIS FOREHEAD!!!

WHO YOU GONNA CALL???

backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

i'm finally back in singapore heat! feels so swelteringly good! hahaha when the flight attendant announced that the temperature was 31 deg C i was kinda jumping in my seat hahaha my parents just stared at me awkwardly

well the plane ride was better than the one leaving singapore. dad bought angels and demons by dan brown, author of da vinci code, so managed to read 268 pages of that while at the airport and while on the plane. also managed to watch 3 movies! not bad rite hahaha watched princess diaries 2, collateral and catwoman. wanted to watch without a paddle as well but fatigue overcame me, and i just fell asleep. now gotta switch back my internal clock again... that oughta be fun :p

anywayz on the plane i was lucky enough to witness a beautiful sight... the view of the sun rising from 39000 feet in the air. it was magnificent. stupendous. spectacular. unbelievable. it was like split into 3 segments. the bottom half was blue, with the top half split almost in half, of both orange and white. just imagine, pure blue, pure orange, and pure white. if only i didn't have the damn plane wing next to me it would've been even nicer. i felt so calm... even the music blasting in my ears suddenly got blocked out. then suddenly... u popped into my mind. argh! just what i didn't need... but u just appeared. like almost every day during my vacation. kinda wished you didn't... but oh well what's done is done. not as if i can erase the deep hole i dug for myself, or did we dig it together??? whatever the case... i'm a big sore loser at times, so sometimes i'm just too stubborn to admit defeat, so i'll be around for a long time

ahhh ANYWAYZ!!! overall the holz was a whole new experience for me. finally got to experience temperatures of below 20 (sad case...) experienced fog, snow (didn't get to touch, can see only coz was on a train), some slush, lots of european hot dogs and the crampness which is london hahaha

oh well christmas is tomorrow... don't feel much of the mood, maybe coz i'm just tired but too stubborn to admit it coz i wanna enjoy the singapore heat hahaha my blog needs a new song... got a song in mind but it's not on the iwebmusic server, shall ask around for other ways to play music on this blog of mine. merry christmas u'll! carpe diem.

the end...

oh well my holiday to europe more or less ended today, since we won't be doing anymore touring tomorrow, just the last trip to the airport and back on the plane to singapore

about today first... it was the warmest (i.e. 10 deg C) day, and also the wettest i guess. it kinda rained the most today, even though it was mostly drizzle, but it was still wet. went to visit some religious museum today and went on a tour of glasgow on a bus, seeing all the main attractions on top of the bus, only thing is the windows were kinda wet, so pictures won't come out too good, not too clear lah at least. then came home, finally chatted to some people online because it was a more relevant hour, then left to my mum's friend's house for an early christmas dinner.

oh yeah and yesterday walked around glasgow a bit... went to my sis' university, had a look at some of the buildings there lah. quite cool actually... real old hahaha sent out a couple of emails too, so didn't blog coz typed too much liaoz :p overall we did the least walking in glasgow lah. most was probably... munich i guess, just got a feeling in my legs hahaha

oh well tomorrow is on ze plane, bags are not all packed yet, but more or less there. so i've got an 8 hour flight to dubai, then a 6.5 hour to singapore. numb legs here i come!!! carpe diem.

other extreme...

well yesterday my stomach was stuffed up... today it's the complete opposite and uhhh... yah i think u can guess. basically it stinks lah :p yucky crap... literally!

anywayz now i'm in my sister's room in glasgow, really cramp room actually, but it's a room nonetheless. i guess it's enough for one person but not for 4 hahaha

really got no idea what i'll be doing here though... i just know i'll be landing in singapore on friday YEEHAH!!! hahaha now more cold!!! plenty of sun!!! can someone tell me how's the weather in singapore nowadays please? i need some update so i know wat to expect when i land there again... spanx :D

uhhh actually not much to blog about today lah... my main adventures took place in the toilet today, and the intermittent periods when i had to run in and out of course heehee carpe diem!

Alas...

i've got a sore throat... crap :( nose is starting to run a little too... double crap.

anywayz today went to fuckin'them pa... i mean buckingham palace in the morning to watch the change of guard ceremony. the beginning part is quite similar to the one i saw in singapore, but overall it's a hell lot longer. so damn draggy... but the band did play some christmas tunes, quite nice

after that met some of my mum's friends for lunch, didn't feel too good then due to the throat, but after lunch saw this busking thingy that was really good and funny, very natural the way they do things here.

after that went to the art museum. realised that the only kinds of art i look at are those of cities, or those of war and suffering, just peachy ain't it hahaha so that was my day for today... hopefully i feel better tomorrow coz glasgow is colder than here, so if i don't feel better i'm in for a real fun time :p carpe diem

too much of a good thing is a very bad thing...

i've gained 3 kg since last month... and i'm getting a belly. been eating way too much food over here. the food is also damn salty and oily lah, and they serve them in large portions too, so i'm getting fatter hahaha. actually i don't mind the weight i'm at now... but the belly is kinda depressing hahaha also got some stomach problems... hopefully it's getting better, been bulking up on water for fear of a previous problem

went to the tower of london and st paul's cathedral today. tower of london was damn cool man, the tour guide was damn friggin' funny. hilarious the way he told the stories... especially about the executions!!! :p tomorrow going to see the change of guards at buckingham palace. after just having seen the change of guard at the istana recently wanna check out the real authentic version, since singapore most probably copied theirs from here. oh yeah after seeing st paul's cathedral, the people here are really proud of their military past man... all their past field marshals are all buried under st paul's cathedral, and a whole lot of other high ranking military personnel since the 1800s! i even found florence nightingale!!! but i couldn't find stamford raffles, guess he wasn't important enough :p

anywayz just found out that the guys finally won a set for vball... they had to win when i'm out of singapore lah, sucks hahaha hmmm maybe it's coz of me... hmmm... carpe diem

miss heat...

me in the hotel in london now using my dad's laptop. finally it can connect to the internet hahaha but using wired connection lah, so it's 25 cents per minute. so gotta type faster hahaha not used to dial up connections man, at home everything is just there. use when u wanna use hahaha

anywayz finally realised that i've got alot of relatives outside of singapore, and it's damn scary. ok maybe they're not ALL relatives, could just be friends of my parents since they lived out here in london for... about 10 years? something like that lah can't really remember.

so tonight went to an asian restaurant here in london, and had the duck since my cousin recommended it. wah it was quite good man! hahaha maybe that explains why it was so crowded with boh asians and ang mohs. but it was nice and tender... but all throughout dinner my stomach was a bit upset... but still managed to eat lah. hopefully it's not because of the reason i'm thinking of. just gotta eat more of me fruits that i've got here in the hotel room.

have this feeling that quite alot is going on at home... read a few blogs and some other signs that i've been getting. really quite miss home man. most of all i miss the sun lah. but then also miss the friends over there. got no one else i know here besides my family lah, and i've got one more week to go. wah sianzzzzz... really hope that things are ok back in that little island man. oh yah and there's no way i'm going to move to europe... it's just too damn cold. I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!!! hahaha i might just retire and die over there lah, actually it's not so bad lah, as long as u find a nice living environment.

another reason why i wanna stay in singapore is... we only pay 5% GST... here they pay 17.5% GST!!!! KNNBCCB!!! when i heard that i wanted to faint lah :p oh yes another thing... tax over here in london can go to as high as 42%. irgnts... irrgnts... unbelievable stuff. and it's also damn crowded here. worst than singapore. seems more condensed, although the view in the country side is nice, but travelling into the city can take more than an hour by car. in singapore can get to town in 20 minutes by bus :p

no idea what i'm going to be doing for the next few days... just going with the flow. till then take care folks! carpe diem :)

finally got a computer!!!

i'm now at mt mum's cousin house in london!! yes london... and those of you from my sec 4 class would remember the other meaning of london in chinese backwards... but that's if you're reading my blog lah.

anyway i know i was supposed to blog when i was in munich and salzburg, but there was a slight problem of computers hahaha anywayz i typed an entry into my dad's comp... but connecting that one to the internet is kinda difficult, so i think i'll just upload that one when i get back into singapore.

so hope you'll are doing fine... shall now go blog hopping and leave some tags around :) carpe diem!

3 more hours...

and i'll be leaving the house to ze airport, and won't be seeing my house, dogs and friends for 2 whole weeks. wah tt's a long time hahaha don't feel very excited about this though... even though it's like EUROPE, but i won't say i'm exactly looking forward to it lah. so much slacking left to be done in singapore that will never be done hahaha but if you think about it, this would probably be the last time i'll be going overseas for... 3 years? after As next year probably can't go, coz government afraid tt us "boys" will run away from NS. after that 2 more years in NS, so no going overseas as well, unless we go for overseas training lah, hmmm... but that ain't exactly a holiday, more like go overseas just to get more tekan-ning :p after NS, dunno how long between NS and university lah, maybe got chance to go overseas again, just maybe...

anywayz big red got into OCS... just like most sji np cis. bert got in, ariel who could've been a ci got in hahaha, now big red got in. wonder where glenn and kah wee will end up :p then again... wonder where bren, ben and i will end up hahaha would be interesting to find out. actually big red was aiming for NSPI... damn high paying post... but 1 person out of 200 will get it, so that's like 0.5% chance of getting it, so sad... i just hope i don't end up in sispec, quite a depressing place. honestly i won't mind OCS, coz SAFTI is at boon lay, so mrt from my house to there isn't tt far hahaha as compared to pasir ris lah when u gotta go teking every weekend during BMT :p

ok now i'm trying to kill my mp3 player battery so i can charge it up again before i leave. stupid thing refuses to die lah!!! been listening to it for the past 3 hours and it refuses to die, even though the battery is already showing it's EMPTY!!! hahaha but the backlight ain't coming on anymore, so i guess that means it's going to die soon. just a matter of when... die you stupid battery DIE!!!! aye i must be stressed...

oh yes people... if you ever see this, please do not sms me after 2 am, coz my phone would be on it's way out of singapore with me, and so your messages will cost you 15 cents each hahaha expensive just for a few words u know :p anywayz my dad will be bringing his laptop along, so i can still blog and check me email, hopefully nothing major happens in the unit within the next 2 weeks, otherwise when i come back i'll be soooooo blur. sometimes emails just don't help lah u know... they can make u even more confused if they try hard enough hahaha

damn battery still ain't dead... but at least i'm enjoying the music hahaha quite dumb to be sitting in front of the computer and listening to your mp3 player at the same time, but desperate times calls for desperate measures :p carpe diem

Blade Trinity...

if you haven't watched that movie... YOU HAVE TO!!! it's damn good man. compared to the second, it's a hell lot more funnier, but less scary, but about as gory i would say. but the main difference is... it's HOT!!! by hot i'm referring to jessica biel... whooo she's got well toned arms man and a whoop ass figure man... hot hot HOT!!! hahaha

anywayz we bought this tub of popcorn thinking tt it would be managable, but it turned out to be this monster of a tub that i could completely bury my head in, and maybe even get lost in it. well i'm glad tt i didn't let ma hold the tub of popcorn, coz she jumped 3 times throughout the show hahaha imagine the amount of mess tt would make man :p ok just finished my fruit, so can type with both hands now... fast forward!!!

after that walked to robinsons go get my dad's pullover for our trip. talked alot of bs on the way there. oh yah stopped at heeren too... realised how scary some girls are when they want something, or at least something to that extent lah hahaha the pullover was alot cheaper than i expected, so oh well... gotta put the extra cash back in the drawer, but maybe i'll keep the change... afterall it's only 11 bucks hahaha

tmr uhhh... supposed to go to bang's house to swim lah, but no word from him yet. supposed to have landed this afternoon, but he ain't online, must be sleeping his ass off. and i still owe him his maths homework hahaha oh well the night is still young, so maybe he'll appear later. off to racing... carpe diem. no more cheers...

uhhh...

morning went to sji to give jeremy PT. met ronald and johnsten on the way in. today... ran 5 rounds, 90 pushups, 90 dips, 90 crunches and 45 leg raises. initially wanted to do 6 rounds, 100 pushups, 100 dips, 100 crunches and 50 leg raises, but jeremy couldn't really take it lah i guess, so cut down a bit. after christmas will try for that target again. he seems to be getting better, maybe he's just more used to the exercises now, good enough i guess.

after that went to coro to cut my hair, finally... :p now it's nice and short, like army tt kind, those that you get after BMT hahaha

later going out to meet mad to watch movie, but it looks like it's going to rain... damn it hope it doesn't lah, but past few days always rains in the afternoon... not only rains it pours!!! ahhh what can i do? nothing! hahaha cheers!

something's not right...

that message didn't really sound like you... it sounded so fake, so unlike you, hopefully it's not what i'm thinking, but it very well could just be that. maybe i shouldn't have made that promise, by right i'm confining myself to this little space, but by left that could be like a minimum standard? i don't know... maybe if i had just cut that damn thing out all this wouldn't have happened, oh wellz...

the matrix soundtracks are damn nice sia... very cool... i think i can listen to them over and over again and not get bored of them. maybe it's cause they sound so grand, well coordinated instrumental pieces, just damn cool lah.

didn't do much today. in fact all i did today was stay at home and slack. really slack lah. in front of computer and in front of tv hahaha of course towards the end it got a little boring, and then i got that message... argh! i'm nuts... cheers.

like tt also can ah?!!?

morning went sji to train jeremy... somehow he always manages to injure himself so that he can't run. and since this obviously isn't official training i can't take any chances and push him too hard lah, so yet again we were left to do stationary PT. initially planned for him to do 3 sets of 30 pushups, 30 dips, 50 crunches and 15 leg raises, and 2 rounds. however due to the circumstances mentioned above, i reverted to more xiong stationary... i.e. 4 sets of 30 pushups, 30 dips, 50 crunches and 15 leg raises. hopefully all this helps lah. should bring a measuring tape next time to measure the diameter of his belly to see if it's going down hahaha. i'm working more on his upper body coz apparently he skips 100 times at home everyday lah, so i'm just taking his word for it, and of course he injured his right leg again lah!!!

after tt went ALL the way to hougang to meet cheryl, huishan and don. never been there by bus before, so i stayed awake all the way with music in my ears, and watching the rain dance past the windows, and sometimes into the windows :p when i got there, after dunno how long, finding the place wasn't so difficult, i mean it was big and it was colourful, how difficult can it be to find such a place hahaha in there i kinda strolled around, exploring the shops. went to CD Rama and bought the matrix reloaded and revolutions soundtracks. haven't heard them yet but they weren't that expensive, guess coz they've been out of a hell long time hahaha was looking for the collaboration between jay-z and linkin park, but couldn't find it. oh well next time maybe...

there i ate a measly 3 dollar fishball noodle soup. here's the catch, i only had noodles... AND 5 FISHBALLS!!! and of course there was soup lah hahaha but it was really quite pathetic... a while later, after some walking around again, got on 165 as the rest headed to a polyclinic for med check up. once on the bus i quickly went all the way to the back... slouched down, and fell asleep. didn't take note wat time i got on the bus, but the bus ride seemed to take like... an hour maybe? tt's my best guess. but it was a good nap anyway hahaha at least i didn't fall off the chair or anything, kudos to the uncle for good driving hahaha

just had a mini-debate with someone... so mafan lah 1st time i did something like tt then turn out like that... haiz... oh well shall eat my dinner to cheer me up. eh wait i don't think that usually works... hmmm... hahaha cheers.

wooo fun fun fun...

met up with some D'03 echo folks today. namely raudah, wendy, kim hock, chun wei and zairul. zairul came later lah joined us for pool at cine, jin kai was supposed to come lah but PS-ed us... he reminds me of me :( oh yes and the friggin' pool factor at marina is closed!!! and i mean closed down!!! there goes my cheap pool games :( so after taking a taxi from the mrt to there, we decided to just take a taxi from there to cine. played for about 3 hours i guess, then headed to PS for dinner.

once we left cine, we saw the guards for istana marching down orchard road lah!!! bloody hell never see before man!! all wearing number 1 uniforms marching down the road with loaded M16 rifles, part of the SAF band, and some MPs with their fancy drill rifles, even doing their fancy drill with the music while marching down the damn street lah!!! kaoz like some mini parade like tt... didn't even know this thing existed lah!!! so we just watched the whole change of guard ceremony as appetizer for our pizza hut dinner. tt's like our squad's once a year dining place now... everytime got outing (which is really not much) we'll just go there to eat hahaha

zairul bloody joker lah, just coz he had pizza hut experience he was acting like a bloody waiter at the place lah. just making the waitresses there plain stressed :p damn funny the way zairul and kim hock paid, a hell lot of coins all thanks to wendy from the pool. there was like piles of them lah... oh and the service charge thing when we suddenly just stopped doing everything so as to make the most out of our money... tt was damn friggin' funny. after that just walked around PS looking at stuff, spent the most time at sports connection and at the music place upstairs. can't remember how to play my immortal sia, so sucky, still need my scores to play the damn thing :(

overall it was great seeing them again lah... even though it was only a small handful, still reminded me of the shit we went through last time, and how CIBTC now is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much easier!!!!!! uniform standard lower... no need to do homework... can get 1 star kayaking for FREE... grouped according to areas, so you know all your area mates during CIBTC... haiz life now is so much easier for them lah!!! oh well this is life... get used to it tai, get used to it. anywayz this time my stomach didn't get poked as much as last time, coz raudah didn't have wiwiek to back her up and give her more... courage? hahaha i dunno lah just didn't get poked as much, but i found out how to protect myself against her pokey fingers liao MUAHAHAHAHA

tmr meeting jeremy in school... then probably going out for lunch, got a feeling that something's wrong, but just can't really pinpoint it, after all my judgement on this kind of things aren't exactly very accurate :p oh well!!! jialat starting to sound like shaun hahaha cheers!

who are you?!?!?!

you're my living nightmare... you're the forbidden fruit... you're the one who keeps me awake at nights even though i'm drained out... you're the one who makes me look, who makes me think, who makes me smile, who makes me worry... but yet i don't know you... i don't know you... i don't... what i really need now is a channel to release my energy... but i can't do anything... not at all... and it's all because of you.

the new specs

collected me new specs today... 2 to be exact, coz 2nd one had offer, so just got 2. one is the sturdier one, in case of flying balls that cause great damage that fly into you face, and the 2nd one is half frame, the more uhhh... sensitive one hahaha i look the same in the half frame one lah... just tt it's more rectangular than my previous one. the full frame one is uhhh... thicker lah, more outstanding. will wear the full frame to school, weekends/holz will wear half frame, to ensure that i actually wear both of them and not waste my money in the end hahaha

yesterday met josh in town to buy some things... yah SOME things hahaha then after that went to bang's house for tennis, only played for like 40 minutes, quite sad actually :p but my backhand has improved somehow hahaha after tt just sat in the study lounge and talk talk talk... all the bullshit come out again hahaha then on the bridge across the road met soph, actually reading and walking at the same time... surprised she didn't fall down or something, considering how blur she can be sometimes.

NFSU2 can be damn tiring... racing 3 consecutive 3 lap races in a tight track is rather tiring, but at least it's fun hahaha using an Audi TT now... still waiting for the evo to come out. but at least the TT is better than the supra, in terms of handling. wonder what new things they'd come up with if there was NFSU3 man!!! hahaha but by then i'd probably be running around on tekong, well at least there are weekends... ok suddenly i feel lonely :(

tmr got D'03 echo outing... not much people going, lots of people busy yet again... wonder when the time will come when we ACTUALLY can have a whole squad coming together again... guessing that would take quite a long while. but looking forward to it lah... kinda, got a sense of apprehension, if that's even the right word to use... oh well to another week in singapore before i fly off. cheers!

tiring week...

monday went to NYP for a friendly. there are a few things to note about the NYP vball team... first they're all like 20, second some of them have been playing since primary school. look at our team... we're all 17, and ALL of us have been playing for less than a year... so yes in the end we did get thrashed. the only thing i was happy about was that my digging was slightly better, i guess, and in the last set we played we did manage to overtake them at one point... 10-9 hahaha after tt became 12-12 and onward to thrashing we went.

so all upset with our performance we had a training session on tuesday on our own in school. if you ask me it wasn't very productive lah. just dug with clar, soph and jess for a while, then after tt went to the cave to spike my guts out. after tt met cheryl, shufang, huishan and herge before their judo training, and just followed them around as they went shopping. sorry to shamus for not following the plan... coz i kinda forgot until they left hahaha got home... slopped down... and started playing need for speed 2 underground hahaha

wednesday friendly matches at SPANS, lost again lah... dunno what's wrong with us. get excited only all go hay-wire... cannot do anything rite, but then again coach had the power to totally bully us lah hahaha he could like just press a button and beat the crap out of us whenever he wanted :p in the end did don't know how many pushups lah... but that was the least of my worries. after tt went far east to have chicken rice, then me, mao, soph, wendy and fred went to orchard library so soph could find her resources for her work, and it turned out she had to go to jurong instead hahaha poor girl...

today went to SJI to give mike his 1st class drill trg. just went through the drills with him and helped him spot some flaws. shi wei and jian long helped him by forming a small squad of 3 hahaha not bad lah i think he's fine... even though we had to make a impromptu flagpole which consisted of metal poles combined together, and some scotch tape and masking tape hahaha well at least it served it's purpose in the end, and even though it's a bit too tall... it still works. after tt headed home for lunch and a little bit more NFSU2

at 3 met josh at bedok to go east coast. cycled for 1.5 hours, and practically covered the length of east coast part 3 times within tt time limit... really went quite fast sia. butt was on fire, thighs were... well they've been worst hahaha recces on ubin are good cycling training hahaha only difference is tt we had to cycle half an hour non-stop today just to get from one end to another :p at ubin we gotta stop every other 5 minutes hahaha

tired ah... wanna sleep... but also wanna race... i'm drifting... following the tides of change... tides of evolution... tides of time... tides of whatever that goes by and can never come back... i'm shrivelling into a lump of uncertainty... i need to race... ready steady GO! cheers.