spiked off...

ytd couldn't blog, coz had some problem logging on. so anywayz had a friendly against ITE dover. all of them had at least 4 years experience, except this one guy who was really quite tall, but he couldn't really do anything right hahaha but otherwise the rest were all... woah... hahaha even this not-so-tall-kinda-round guy could jump damn high lah! and their spikes... wah lao shiok sia hahaha played 8 sets in total... well at least we managed to win 1 i guess. but they're a very fun loving bunch. playing with them actually had a few laughs, unlike vs yj and sr lah. tmr... pj. all this experience HAS to do us some good. and that wonderful game against ny... that HAS HAS HAS to do us some good. hahaha i'm on a vball high liaoz man :p hopefully my spikes tmr will be ok. simon said my spikes yesterday were ok, just not enough power. i agree with him lah. almost all of my spikes went over the net. just lost concentration a few times and sent a small handful into the net. the rest all can go down lah... wrist is bending more now i guess, just that the arm gotta deliver more force to that white, blue and yellow sphere. must be more hiong!!! oh yeah and felt damn shiok when i saved the ball that was flying towards the grandstand hahaha really had to chiong for that one man, but when i saved it i felt damn friggin' good sia :p the great feelings u can get from hitting a flying ball hahaha

oh yeah last night germaine told me her thumb hurt AGAIN! and i kinda guessed it was sprained, but that dumb girl go and look at the wrong part of her thumb. then i saw her today, then just pressed her hand once, and she screamed into my face. yes SCREAMED!!! immediately i told her u've sprained your thumb hahaha it's good to have experience :p but somehow it hurts when she digs... but mine hurt when i spiked... hmmm... oh well different thumbs i guess hahaha

today's mass pe was... kinda stuffy. coz we did it in the hall and the teachers closed all the damn doors. just the fans on. wth man... anywayz in all we ran arnd the hall 30 times, 80 pushups, 20 situps, 20 v-situps, 20 crunches, 40 reverse crunches, 20 reverse v-crunches, 20 burpees, 20x8 jumping jacks, 20 lunges. hmmm i think that's all. but shiok lah... felt so alive hahaha i realise that's the joy of sports, besides pushing yourself of course.

oh yeah got my letter to register for ns medical yesterday as well. blackie and neo got theirs as well. oh yeah shem too. i guess it comes in batches. can't wait for the 2 hour aptitude test man... sit in front of the computer for 2 hours filling up a whole lot of MCQs. oh yeah and the underwear room... where we'll just sit on chairs in our underwear waiting for our turn to be examined... so thrilling... ... ... "thrilling" hahaha

pj watch your asses tomorrow!

what's done is done...

must be part of the plan...

today's PE was... meant to kill our thighs. it was sorta like a mini-mass PE, coz quite a few pe teachers were at sentosa with the J1s i guess. all we did was grandstand after grandstand. jumping up and running up in double steps. the pushups, crunches and jumping jacks were nothing compared to the grandstands man hahaha can't walk down the stairs properly now... about the same as yesterday lah. even when i go up i walk funny hahaha but yah i guess it was a taste of mass pe to come on thursday.

tmr got friendly against ITE dover. have no clue what their standard is... but i'm guessing they should be quite good. probably send a few ultra tall people just to have fun with us. man i really hope my thighs hold out tomorrow... coz they're killing me right now. they're like so damn rock solid now... =(

today's weather was perfect for... SLEEPING!!! but i only took a short nap in school and at home. rain rain rain... so damn cooling man. although maths lecture was kinda cold, but gp lecture is always worse. wonder how the ppl at sentosa did with this rain and stuff. hope it didn't douse their enthusiasm.

maths is so depressing... when i finish complex numbers 1... P & C is finished in lectures as well, which technically means i have to do that as well!!! wah so great... finish one another one pops up. guess that's the only way to keep us on our toes.

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biggest misconception ever...

whoever said volleyball is a slack sport... i say go screw yourself! now that we've (finally) learnt all the cheem cheem formation stuff... my legs are going to die hahaha ok actually they're dying coz of PE, and coz stupid me didn't cool down and stretch my muscles, so now both my thighs are on fire, my left shin kinda hurts, my 2nd and 3rd toe on the right foot are kinda stiff, and my right arm hurts. oh well... the things that make life interesting and challenging hahaha challenging in the sense that i can't really get down stairs with as much grace as i could before :p

oh man i just looked out my window... and the moon is damn nice tonight man!!! it's not usual high up white ones... it kinda looks like the sun!!! woah cool stuff man... if only i could get downstairs to get the digicam. damn it!!! argh! wonder what we're doing for PE tomorrow hahaha

CCA pasar today was ok lah. just damn hot. never sweat so much in this dri-fit shirt before. went to audi to try and cool down. luckily it wasn't that hot even with all the ppl arnd. but still wasn't enough lah... came out... still sweating like a pig hahaha the band sounded good this time... nice bouncy music. could hear them really clearly from the courts. but altogether it seemed more mellow than the 1st one... probably coz everyone is more tired than 3 months ago, and some people found it quite sian lah. i was also kinda dreading it at the beginning of the day. but when it started... it was ok lah. just carry some tables, and play vball hahaha

homework has piled up again. in order to conquer maths... must neglect physics. but if i wanna do my physics... my maths will just fade into the distance. how to finish everything!?!? don't even start about econs and GP...

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smash in the face...

had vball trg early in the morning today. everyone turned up more or less on time, so that was good. started quite promptly. quite happy that we did so much even without coach around. but today... wah really like shit for me lah. don't know what i'm doing. right at the end it was compounded by getting smashed in the face by regina's serve... wasn't looking and i didn't know she had served, next thing i knew a ball was flying towards my face at high speeds. but the guys were really shagged out lah. the all powerful sun today didn't really help make things any better. now my arm hurts, and my toes hurt too... weird. i just hope it's due to overexertion, and not anything serious. need to focus more when i'm on court... and need more split-second decisiveness... right now i'm just too slow... honestly... (yes shufang i admit i'm slow... on the court) but then my body has always been like that leh... once tired only will just go conk. stamina problem lah... my stamina suckssssssssss. must run run run. NAPFA in 3 weeks... run rUn RUN!!!

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words women use...

got this from a friend through friendster. quite funny lah... and scary at the same time :p

~~~

Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when
they are right and you need to shut up.

Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been
given 5 more minutes to watch the game before
helping around the house.

Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This
means "something" and you should be on your toes.
Arguments that begin with "nothing" usually end
in "fine".

Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission, DON'T DO IT!

Loud Sigh
Although not actually a word, the loud sigh is often
misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she
thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is
wasting her time standing here and arguing with you
over "Nothing".

That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements that
woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that
she wants to think long and hard before deciding how
and when you will pay for your mistake.

Thanks
This is the least used of all words in the female
vocabulary. If a woman is thanking you. Do not
question it, just say you're welcome and back out of
the room slowly.

~~~

do any guys out there get this often? hahaha

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ok sorry tini... it's 11... u win... but u won't forgive me... stupid bully tini!

what's done is done...

GOOD friday...

yeah today was good i guess. hahaha didn't really fall asleep in church. although i must admit i did doze off at times, but i didn't fall asleep for more than a second at each time i think... ok tt's still not very good. 2 days of vball trg in a row is tiring. and plus yesterday i had vball rite after 6 rounds during PE. oh well competition is coming... so must chiong i guess.

got a hell lot of homework to catch up on this weekend, and i didn't do any today. and i doubt i'll do much tomorrow, and not much on sunday yet again. wah this sucks... so much to do yet cannot do. and why? coz i'm too lazy. hahaha oh well...

ok i'm not really thinking right now... and tini there are only 9 people in our class who are in relationships... not that many lah...

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woah...

let's see... new J1s today. many acs boys... surprisingly. don't seem to be that many sji guys though, maybe coz i didn't notice. anywayz they got a new uniform. and i mean NEW hahaha now the shirt at the back and sleeves have pleats. quite yucky... i think it just doesn't go with the colour. and i think they changed the material as well, coz it looks kinda greenish now... and apparently it feels like canvas hahaha poor guys man... gotta wear thicker uniforms than we already do, and plus now they can look like MJC students hahaha and then when they tuck out their shirts... ITE here we come :p i think the shirt we're wearing now still looks nicer lah... simpler. the new one is just... yucks :p but i must say the orientation tee is quite nice. the back is really quite interesting, but i've got a feeling the ink will fade after a few washes, dunno why hahaha

got back GP marks. 46 sia!!! i'm quite surprised i passed actually, coz i thought i'd totally screw up both my compo and compre. but for the 1st time in my essay, i made 3 spelling errors. never happened before lah... i think u can tell my state of mind during the common tests through my essay. shows how focused i am in that sense. oh well... so officially for common tests i got OOE and C6. wonderful. feels like mid years last year =X

vball trg today was good... got quite a few good spikes in. just need to concentrate on jumping higher, and i'll be fine. the guy's net is NOT TALL! i just gotta jump higher that's all ;) anything taller than u can be overcome as long as... u can jump higher than it, and i definitely can jump higher than this stupid net hahaha.

competition in april... got trg tmr after mass PE, since friday no school. can u imagine... mass PE then immediately vball trg. can imagine myself collapsing on the floor into a heap. to anyone who happens to read this... if u see me on the floor quickly get some ice cold water and pour it on my face to wake me up. thanks.

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CJ's up...

this morning bro paul talked to us for a while before school started. he told us, much to our surprise, that entry score into CJ science this year is 13, and arts 14. immediately there was a huge buzz in the assembly yard, myself included. 13 points man!!! last year it was 16. year before it was 17. unbelievable. all i can say is... BP's done it again hahaha i hope he goes back to sji again. u never know... it might just happen. i know alot of people don't like BP, coz of the way he might reprimand you, but look at the bigger picture lah, all that he does adds up to something good. i mean there was a queue for appeals from 8 am this morning till the time i left school, which was about 3!!! and the queue was really a long snake lah! about 940 spaces for J1s, ok not spaces, MOE is shoving them in, and there must've been like 500 ppl appealing maybe? i'm just guessing, but assuming that queue was that long for the whole day... i'm guessing it should be around there. but yah CJ's going places, and i'm happy that i chose to stay here, to be part of this transition. :)

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hah...

oh well got OOE for CTs. both Os are 37 marks, which is as good as an F lah. tonight will be interesting... i'm sooooo dead. but then again, i've brought all this upon myself. so i'll take whatever is thrown at me... as calmly as i possibly can, but i'm kinda compressed now, if u know what i mean... last term was just bad. a horrible term for me. practically nothing went right for me. gotta change things for myself this term, otherwise i'll be in a shithole that i can't climb out from.

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what on earth do you want?!?!!?

got back econs CT results today. got 37 marks, which is an O. when my mum asked me just now, 1st thing she said was "that's very bad!" ok fine understandable... after a while she asked what's the highest in class, i said "58, which is a C". then she went on to say "C is much better than an O!" ok lah... tt's a fair statement too i guess. THEN! she merrily went on to tell me "no more social outings anymore! you didn't even tell me you were going out on saturday." that was when i thought, why the fuck do i have to tell you everywhere i go!?!? does she tell me everywhere she goes?? HELL NO! and it's not as if i didn't tell anyone... i DID tell dad. so on and on she went, eventually she said "no more vacations for you". wah knn fuck. what the fuck does she know about what fuck i'm going through in the fucking education system anyway?!?! all she says is "you're only taking 3 A level subjects, so you should do better than your sister!" fuck you lah i'm not as fucking smart as her can!?!? i'm not as fucking hardworking as her can!??! i need my own FUCKING TIME!!! in sec 4 ben told me once that i'm a bit of a control freak, and i had to agree with him. now i'm going to say where i got it from... from YOU! all u want is to control my fucking life! u're just another part of this fucking system of control!!! fuck lah later u come home sure going to lecture me again lah! tomorrow getting back maths and physics, i can't fucking wait...

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well-intended mistakes... (cont.)

don't get me wrong... i don't HATE the MOE. i'm just unhappy about the way they do things. their intentions are really for the good of the future of the country. they just need to take more time out to find out what we students are really going through, and to understand that we are just youths, who need our own time to explore our own interests and develop them. really i don't hate them... just kinda bu shuang i guess hahaha

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well-intended mistakes...

had a couple of thoughts while watching x-man 2 earlier on. the MOE wants us to be creative. yes good on them. it's for the good of the country that they have an enterprising and daring future money-makers. only recently have they realised that they need to do something about it i guess. better late than never? well yah in a way. but somehow i don't think the way the entire system is set up is helping them, in fact i think it's doing the direct opposite! the way the system is set up is to ensure rigidness among students, and to ensure everyone in primary and secondary level goes towards the same goal, a common goal among all students aged 7 to 16. does that really inspire much creativity?

then comes school rules. for guys... hair must be short and neat. cannot touch collar and eyebrows, cannot spike, cannot colour blah blah blah girls... supposed to tie their hair with dark blue or black bands lah apparently. APPARENTLY. but u see all kinds of colours everyday. point here is that the way we do our hair is a sign of individuality. it's one of the things on our body that we can manipulate the most, and yet they want us to look more or less the same as the person next to you. i think creativity and individuality comes hand in hand. in order to be creative, we've gotta dare to be ourselves. dare to challenge the norm. if not how would scientists of yester-year discover so many things? many of them did not agree with the norm, and set out to find out the truth. they didn't fully abide by the system that they were stuck in. and because of that they outshone many others. we gotta be ourselves in school. but sadly everytime we try to be ourselves, the school clamps down on us, forcing us back to our normal sad pathetic routine. MOE wants so much for us to do well, that they're 'killing' us. like the analogy given in the movie so close. a gun is like a bird. if you grab it too tightly it will die, but if u don't hold on to it hard enough it will fly away. we are the birds. the gun is the potential that we hold inside us, just waiting to break out and make a difference to the world. but can we... can i?

what's done is done...

wah my neck looks damn fat in the picture above hahaha anywayz that pic was taken after rockafella in the audi extention. ripped it from tini who ripped it from nicky. it's quite cool leh actually... coz of the blue door and our black tops. kinda evanescence-ish hahaha yes? no?

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randomness round 2...

morning went to PA for meeting about LMSC. last night when amanda called me to ask me whether i could go, i said yes. then immediately after i hung up, i was cursing and swearing as to why on earth i had said yes. damn it and i was right! that thing was never intended for CIs lah... but i did meet dickson there. still asks alot of questions as usual hahaha still remember he liked ivy during cibtc hahaha funny guy. mtg ended earlier than expected, so came home and played zeus for an hour before heading out to town.

met xin and gc at dhoby ghaut arcade. soon after neo and shaun came along. getting better at world combat man hahaha even though this is like only my 3rd time playing :p but it's still interesting somehow. hung arnd in arcade for a while, then go kfc for late lunch. after tt walk to paradiz played pool for a while. we all felt damn sian, and i played like shit hahaha didn't play for long lah like 35 minutes? then walk somemore... got no space at LAN shops all over the place, so went to some coffee place to just sit and drink and talk. had an expensive vanilla milkshake, but it was nice though. never been inside that building before so obviously never tried anything there. soon after... LAN SHOP GOT SPACE!!! so played CS for like... 2 hours? hahaha somehow this was like the most fun time we've ever had at lan. introduced them to vertigo, and it became more like a sniping session than anything else :p laughed damn hard lah. after that when we left... all of our eyes hurt man. couldn't walk straight :p looked too closely to the screen while sniping liao lah hahaha but yah today was fun. always fun when i go out with sji guys... somehow...

came home to be greeted with a new dog. lab retriever as well, same breed as mel. this one's a male though, and somehow it's got a funny name of kiki... yes KIKI!!! that's a bloody girl's name lah! so i suggested we change it to kip, since the beginning sound a bit like kiki, and it's a more guy name. so yah now we've got mel, zen and kip ;) but he's still kinda shy though... hiding in corners and walking arnd with his tail almost between his legs :p at least zen isn't attacking him... maybe tt's coz he's slightly bigger than her hahaha

so... what's love? can it even be defined? nah... i doubt it. it's kinda like black... can u actually define the colour black? you can say darkness, evil, the opposite of white. but tt's not really a definition. those are just examples stating what is black, and what isn't black, but u can't actually really define black. likewise... u can't really define love. yeah the bible says that love is kinda, it is not selfish and all that stuff, but tt's the same idea as the black thingy. it's just saying what love is and isn't. then u get many different types of love! motherly love, fatherly love, sisterly love, brotherly love, friend friend love, husband wife love, bgr love... all different kinds lah, but still no definition. so how can only totally understand and feel something that cannot be defined??? not easy aye? well even though we may never understand it, but we can't live without it. imagine a world without love. chaos! mayhem!! utter madness!!! haiz... up till now i'm not even sure if i've really experienced it, even though i think i have... but i still can't be 100% sure if what i felt is really considered as "love".

sometimes u just feel more comfortable around some people. sometimes u just can't think of anything to talk about when u're with someone else. inter-human chemistry i guess. wonder where physics and bio comes in. hmmm... anywayz, when u're close to a guy... people see you as good friends, just pals lah. BUT THEN... when u're close to a girl... people start saying stupid things. things that aren't even true. things that eventually pull the 2 of you apart. for something that isn't even true, but simply coz of fear of the rumours spreading and escalating. are we as jc students just not mature enough to understand all these things yet? or is this just part of human nature. hmmm i find i blame alot of things on human nature. ahhh... that's just human nature.

humans are pack animals. think lionesses, hyenas, gazelles, elephants. we survive better in a pack, or group. we're not like eagles who can soar free and by ourselves. we wouldn't survive that way. alone... humans are vulnerable and weak, susceptible to any kind of negative influences. bloody haze flowing through my window! (out of point, just had to say it, sorry) in a group... humans are more gung ho, and safer. they do stupid things in groups, but when they're alone... they can do stupid things as well, just more fatal ones. humans need their own pack to survive... that's human nature.

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absolutely random...

at this time of night, stuff just appears in my head hahaha so this shall be an entirely random entry :p

just had a little chat with tini (little... tini... hmmm...) she underestimates me!!! oh well... at least i gave her a bit of a shock hahaha well i WAS happy. coz school is starting in 2 days, and there's so much shit left that i wanna do. most importantly is sleep. but if i sleep so much, won't talk to so many friends, and won't get to play my computer games, won't do homework, won't train. so basically i can't sleep! my ho is quite a poor guy. not monetarily. maths lesson on monday. 3 girls go? today's maths lesson. 3 girls and 1 guy goes, an improvement over monday, but they all leave at the break which is at the hour mark. somehow he has made alot of people dislike maths. or is it really him that we can't stand? or are we all in our own little way burning out after 11.5 years of mugging, this year being our 12th. maybe wat we all need is a big break... from school as a whole. just absorbing close to nothing cheem into our heads, or at least not forcing anything into our heads. i mean we've been doing that for 11 years already, we need a break lah. thank goodness for NS eh. why do you like me? u barely even see me! i've seen u like 2 times in 2 years? and yet u like me? yah sure we chat on msn and msg each other, but isn't it weird that someone can like you without even seeing your face more than once a year? technology... makes and breaks friendships. you (another you, not the same you as earlier referred to) screwed up something i held dear at that point of time. only found out this year what actually happened. u asshole broke the written rule. guy talk is GUY talk! u don't spread GUY talk to GIRLS!!! see the distinction?!!? stupid sonnovabiatch! u're lucky i haven't met u since then... dunno wat i might do to you also. and this happened all because of? technology. the computer. the internet. and satellites and wireless connections. all supposed to make life more "convenient". the only way it makes it convenient is the physical sense. spritually and emotionally it just screws everything up. there's lack of personal touch. people pay less attention to what they're doing. they get more easily distracted as there are more things to do in a shorter space of time, and therefore they can never fully focus on the task at hand. and even if u were to really manage to focus, something more interesting will just suddenly come your way and there you go. moving on. ahhhh the feeling of randomness and bullshitting... feels good to write crap hahaha abbreviations. the pinnacle of laziness. ok i just can't find a better word. HDB, ERP, CBD, PIE, AYE, CTE, MRT, SBS, TIBS, COE, MOE, BHB, KNN, CCB, LOL, WTF, STFU, UFO, CIA, SPA. ok i'm tired hahaha now let's type that out in FULL! Housing Development Board, Central Business District, Pan Island Expressway, Ayar Rajah Expressway, Central Expressway, Mass Rapid Transit, Singapore Bus Services, Trans Island Bus Services, Certificate of Entitlement, Ministry of Education, buay hiao bai, kan ni nah, chao ch** bye, laughing out loud, what the f*ck, shut the f*ck up, unidentified flying (f*cking) object, central intelligence agency, science practical assessment (knnbccb!!!!!) abbreviations came about because man is lazy. man is naturally lazy, always finding the shortest way out, unlike electricity, which doesn't always take the shortest route out. it sometimes even involves taking the longer route out, simply because there are less obstructions along the way. man cannot afford to do that now. because of the never ending moutain of things to do, and the quest to be the most productive and efficient, man will always take the shortest route available out. people are always in a rush. and when people are in a rush, they forget how the people around them feel, and start venting their frustrations. they hurt other people in the process and don't know about it. they disregard everything around them. oh well thus is the human life now. where the more u make, the better you are. ok now tini is chasing me to stop, so that she can read this wonderfully artistic crap that i've written. enjoy this people. it takes a great amount of skill to come up with this amount of bullshit. i like to call it the art of coming out with male bovine excrement. that's the more scientific term. oh look... more bullshit.

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seems as though my voice is back. maybe there's something in the SPANS water. heh!

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UTC 2005

sec 2s have a good foundation and high enthusiasm. i am happy.
sec 3s have improved, and are beginning to show potential. i am happy.
sec 4s did what they had to do, and some stood out more than others. i am happy.
got to see you smile again. i am happy.

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the lesson to be learnt...

had AC-CI mtg today at PA. it was good. our new AC, mr lee, is an ex-forensics guy, ex-CID guy. he's good hahaha somehow got a feeling that he'll bring our area to newer heights. hopefully the post of head training doesn't suck this enthusiasm out of him. after the meeting, went to novena LJS to eat lunch. then came home. played zeus and CS CZ. later my cousin is coming with her baby son... my latest nephew hahaha. so now that makes it 3 nephews, and 4 nieces. makes me sound so old man... but that's wat u get when ur cousins are all like around 8 years your senior hahaha

oh yeah at the meeting mr lee told me that mr chan (our previous AC) had zero records of my participation at NPDP last year, which means he cannot recommend me for CP award. wth man... basically there is no zero record of my contributions to NPDP last year basically, so it was just as if i didn't do it. haiz... i think i'm really meant to learn something out of this week, and i think i know what it is! that is... to do things not for fame and glory, but to do things simply because you enjoy doing it. i enjoy participating in parades, and i enjoy playing the piano. but not everything comes with the large scale recognition that one would have wished for when it 1st began. i always thought i was quite a humble person... my perspective on that has changed.

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rockafella skank...

heh it was fun man. soaking up the atmosphere of a hall which didn't have enough seats. was not as entirely nervous as i had originally expected. but yah i was still nervous. just sat backstage watching the other groups perform, and just stoned :p stone stone stone all the way till it was our turn. quickly ran down to the piano, and just played. left hand screwed up at one point, during the rock part. but thank goodness my right hand kept going, and koon's guitar kinda drowned out my piano anyway... so it was ok hahaha overall it was an extremely interesting experience lah. 1st time performing in front of so many people. but then again not many people noticed me, coz i was hidden behind a tower of speakers and the hood of the grand piano hahaha oh yeah man the piano was damn good lah!!! quality was wonderful! just the mic kinda lousy lah... but the piano itself was damn pro! actually first time in my entire life i'm using a grand piano, so that was another interesting experience as well hahaha not everyday u get to play a GRAND piano :p all i have at home is a normal standing piano. but better than an organ i guess :p didn't win in the end, but i certainly had fun over the course of rehearsing for the concert, and actually performing the concert. thanks to cheryl, josh, koon and derek. and xuanrui ah... must break your stupid collar bone, so no violin... gggrrrrr hahaha would've been so much cooler with u loh!!! oh well...

and cheryl, i'm not mad at you lah... i'm more mad at myself. ok lah must admit i was mad at you for a while, but that quickly turned to me being pissed at myself. so don't worry about it yah? =) and u did fine... not your fault that your guitar got tuned out, didn't have enough time to check lah. no sweat. koon... don't feel so beat up about it lah. guess u didn't know your guitar was really so powerful hahaha u got a good guitar man, so good till u didn't know it was so good :p

tmr off to PA... hope it won't last too long. scully i fall asleep ah!!! the chairs in the conference room are damn comfortable lah!!! cushioned leather chairs... can rock back and forth... jialat man. cannot fall asleep in front of AC hahaha

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itchy sia...

walked past each other again today with zero exchange of greetings or whatsoever. makes me wonder... have i really changed so much that this has to happen? has the situation really changed so much since last year? then again... what of the promise of good friends forever? oh well... there's still an itch in my chest whenever this kinda thing happens... but at least it ain't as bad as a sting =|

vball yesterday... beat SR. 4 sets to 1. finally won a game after 1 year of playing vball. but of course there's still much to improve upon overall. but for me, i think i played worst yesterday than against YJ lah... damn bloody jialat. screwed up 1st ball quite a few times in the set that we lost. in fact i'd say we lost the most points in that set coz of me. but yah overall we were better lah... more organised. :) felt good...

PE today was fun. went to MPH today to do uhhh... can't really remember what it's called also hahaha but it was fun man!!! wanted to do it again, but couldn't... crapz. but yah it was fun hahaha except i kinda wedgied myself at one point of time :p THAT part wasn't too fun

rocka rehearsal after tt. sound system f-ed up man! feedback all the way. mikes fuzzy, no proper piano mike. bloody hell rather use the school's mike for the piano man. hopefully they bring the proper one for tomorrow, otherwise i gotta play louder, and won't sound as nice liaoz. hope all goes well tomorrow... really do. actually quite scared i'd screw up, coz if i do, the whole song is gone =( stresssssssssss... but i REALLY wanna do well. 1st time i'm actually performing on the piano for anyone hahaha

what's done is done...

in the words of my alma mater...

onward and upwards in life's earnest battles
joyously bearing the brunt of the fight
nobly forgiving for all that may pain you
and bravely defending the cause of the right

what's done is done...

rocking the rock...

yesterday went serangoon to jam. more like rehearse for rocka actually. 3 hours of it. didn't play much lah, due to the fact that i'm only playing in 1 song hahaha they all played until fingers pain... my fingers only felt cold :p but yah it was fun i guess... albeit rather expensive fun, but fun is still fun. after tt went toa payoh to meet bang and raoz for dinner. fell asleep on the bus and missed the stop. so had to cross the long bridge on the PIE just to take a bus back ONE stop. bloody hell hahaha was quite irritated with myself. ate at pizza hut... and just slacked and crapped our night through. finally a time when i could actually slack over a meal and just chat hahaha felt quite good lah.

today... luckily was a lecture day. not much mood for tutorials right now, coz all they'd talk about is CTs, which was kinda screwed up lah. and as usual this morning ho seng chye was pms-ing again in the LT. just came in and starting blasting the hell out of anyone who was late. unbelievable lah... just suddenly start shouting. can tell paul poh was kinda shocked and unhappy about it as well, but u know, must play along lah hoh.

after school had rocka rehearsal in the hall again. made one mistake right at the end of the bridge, made it sound funny hahaha but oh well, must admit i was kinda nervous. 1st time playing a grandpiano damn it. and 1st time in front of audience too!!! wah friday how sia... 800+ people =X ahhh should be ok lah, got rehearsal tmr and wednesday again, should get used to it by then lah i hope. ok i MUST get used to it by friday hahaha cannot malu loh... most of the song is by me... wahhhhhh...

oh yeah... PE today was interesting. mr lim made us do wheelbarrow around the track. guys in pairs. thank goodness for all the npcc PT on the track since sec 1, and all the lashings i've tied using manilla ropes. if not for them, my hands would be in pieces now. marian's and cheryl's hands are all pretty screwed up. huge blisters on the palm. guys more or less ok lah... but somehow or other josh's blister seems to be growing bigger... quite interesting actually hahaha me ok lah... just right pinky got a bit of skin rubbed off, but it's ok lah, can still play piano ;) cheryl had some problems playing her guitar just now... hope she gets well real soon. and i also hope we don't do the same thing for PE tomorrow hahaha

what's done is done...

is it just me...

or have you never looked this good before???

what's done is done...

ubin ubin ubin...

tired man... but atc is worst hahaha more challenging. but today was ok i guess... needed to do some shifting around coz of the little mess at the beginning, but at the end there was still not enough time for everyone to try everything. had a little fun with the tunnel right at the end, but didn't get to go through it myself lah. didn't try anything actually, coz didn't have indemnity form.

feel like i'm losing it. losing the "touch". guess will need to see over the course of the next few months how they do. crunch time after august 8 i guess, but will be long out of unit by then. but really the only time i can do whatever i wanna do is UTC... after that i won't have any other really significant opportunity to do it. i want to make an impact on them! i want them to realise the importance of what they have to do, and why they have to do it! but nothing is as easy at it seems...

what's done is done...

normality...

CTs are over, finally... physics is the best of all the papers. if i fail this... i think i can go run into a wall or a tree, or something immovable. it was quite do-able lah.

after school got chinese results. got C6!! WAHAHAHA NO MORE CHINESE!!! WAHAHAHA WOOHOO!!!!! wah tired...

after tt went to jam... but we got there like 3 minutes late, and the uncle gave the room away to another group. so gotta go back on sunday again... haiz stupid uncle. 3 minutes also cannot wait. just coz koon "never" answer his phone (and u dialled the wrong number), u give the room away lah. wah lao so screwed up man...

after that came back to school for volley. not many people stayed behind lah. just dug and dug and dug. spiked a few times... but was kinda tired before it even started lah, so throughout didn't feel too alright. then mr lim came and pulled me and derek aside... told us to train harder coz he saw the match against yj. felt damn bad after that lah... felt friggin' guilty.

met paul and nizar at the busstop after their NPDP trg. need to talk to them more lah. find out about what they're going through these days in trg. guess UTC will be the best possible date. sec 3s too... need to talk to all of them lah!!! many many things to talk about. on the bus... flooded with tchs and rv np cadets man. hard to think i was in their position 4 years ago... back in sec 2. scary man. plus i took part in it last year as well. seems so damn far away lah... but then again it seems quite near as well hahaha

tmr go ubin... sit down there and stone hahaha at least get to get out of singapore, the mainland at least, and just spend a day in the sun. slaaaaaaaaaaaaaack =D

oh yeah... didn't get to tell you this the other day, and hopefully u still read my blog. all i want is your friendship lah, nothing more. i can't expect anything more than that. but having less than that... will be really quite sucky lah. last year was really fun, but now sometimes i wish it hadn't been so... oh well...

what's done is done...

hmmm...

well... maths... starting was ok, kinda... ok it wasn't tt great hahaha kept telling myself not to panic, like i've done on the previous few occasions. but yah it was cold in the hall... had fun keeping my piss in :p

since ended at 11, went to TP eat macs... came back to school and mugged physics, and continued learning how to relax hahaha. hmmm actually i mugged the TYS... but that's the same thing. after like... 2.5 hours in the library. came out for vball. can run arnd already lah ankle is OKAY!

tmr after physics must stay back along with t18 and t20 for maintenance duties, aka keep the tables and chairs in the audi. after tt 1 pm release of chinese results. after tt 2 to 4 go jamming, rehearse for rockafella, after tt come back to cj for VOLLEYBALL!!! ok i'm on a vball high... play too much vball already. and junhong is staying in CJ!!! WAHAHAHAHA yeah man... got more hope liao hahaha

shing gathem gathem! what's done is done...

2 more shitty papers...

maths and physics left. well at least there are fewer chapters than econs... but i guess they are cheemer, thus the reason for fewer chapters? hmmm... well maths there's differentiation, integration and trigo. the 3 big fat ass chapters in A level maths hahaha physics... only 4 chapters. biggest is superposition lah. damn waves and wavelets.

econs today... ok lah... i hope. maybe... just MAYBE i can pass hahaha i mean i did worst for econs during promos lah, not counting GP of course. hopefully it's ok. couldn't really study after school. went to library with classmates, and just kept falling asleep. then after i managed to wake up, couldn't really focus. throughout the whole day... didn't really accomplish much lah. was staring at my trigo and differentiation notes, really dunno how much went in. towards the end after i went to wash my face for the 2nd time, and hung around in the toilet for a while, felt better lah. not in studying sense, but in the mood sense. didn't feel so down and out after that. but still couldn't study lah. so just went the the shelves directly next to where i was sitting, and pulled out this book called "learn to relax" hahaha showed it to my classmates and the other odac ppl at the other table... everyone just laughed hahaha felt good :p then after tt i just kept telling everyone to relax, while pointing to the cover of the book :p lame shit lah, nothing better to do. after tt felt like eating macs, so went TP with josh to have my nuggets meal hahaha haven't had macs for quite a while actually.

as u probably can tell, i feel quite good now, surprisingly. didn't think i'd feel so much better, but i do! hahaha maybe coz i finally managed to get it off my chest, hearing it directly from you instead of someone else, and finally getting rid of the temptation to just assume (as josh says it... making an ASS out of U and ME). yeah never assume... it's baaaaaad ;) so yet again... THANKS =D

feel like running tmr morning... yeah i might sound a bit crazy, going for a run before a maths common test paper hahaha but i haven't gone running for more than a week man! need to get some blood pumping to my legs again. would do grandstands if my ankle wasn't so messed up, so i think i'd just run and see how it holds out. right ankle is really weakened now... after that slip a couple of weeks back. wonder how to strengthen it again, don't wanna kenna sprained ankle during NS. their sick leave = sai kang hahaha rather go bashing through forests with friends than do sai kang by myself. the lone SKF :p didn't play any piano today... feels weird hahaha fingers itchy lah, maybe tt's why i can type so much now :p

oh well... 2 more days of CTs, while lucky people like sophie ng have already finished and have 4 days of pure SLACK! *ahem ahem* shing gathem gathem!

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here i go again on my nightly roller coaster rides. not bad eh, get free front row seats! hah! doesn't help i guess that your name keeps popping up.

GP yesterday... dead. gone case. head on chopping board. toast.

econs tomorrow... well i've never passed an econs test since school started, so probably can guess how it will go.

the only place i can find peace in now is while playing my piano. nothing else appears in my head except the song, and everytime i stop, i get a rush of thoughts to my head again. as if the tunes coming out were dams... stopping the relentless torrents of "thoughts" from rushing into my head.

1 week of march holz won't be enough. life's just peachy.