johari and nohari...

check these out and fill them up yeah?

http://kevan.org/johari?name=J.E.TAI

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=J.E.TAI

just fill them up, no holds barred, slap me in the face and kick me in the ass if you have to, but just let me know hahaha please leave ur name so that i know who you are k? thanks :)

what's done is done...

cranks and S's...

got the very 1st car i drove today for driving lesson, number 33. nice number right hahaha and i think somehow i'm more nervous around this certain instructor Lee, whereas i don't make as much stupid errors when i've got Wee hahaha even their surnames rhyme :p anyway today Lee brought me around thhe crank courses and S courses. not bad lah, quite happy. went around the crank about 5-6 times and the S 3 times, and i didn't hit the kerb even once! hahaha maybe every one does it, but i'm quite happy, coz managed to control that damn clutch properly. the older cars are harder to control than the newer ones, probably because the newer cars have power steering and increased lower gear torque, which gives us more control lah. why can't i have that car number 1 again =x anyway seeing hondas on the road now really make me feel like jumping into them and driving hahaha but i don't see myself driving a honda in the future, either a mazda 6 or RX8, coz they look nicer and more sporty heehee and of course they're more powerful lah, needless to say :p

exactly one more week of work left. february 28 i stop work, and i start living MY life. won't be able to do this anymore after uni, so must make the most of it whilst i still can. but for now, gotta type my report hahaha part of the job lah :p

tags:
fuzz: at least ur shots long just hit a bit lighter can already what, my shots short because i simply blur hahaha

cheryl: okie okie!!! i'll go visit u on thursday coz i end at 11 too! hahaha eh go work on friday also leh, coz i also end at 11 hahaha so many days off... lucky hamster!

what's done is done...

a few reminders...

been forgetting a couple of things recently. don't know why also... maybe not studying slows down the brain hahaha anyway... a few things to do...

1. shave
2. cut nails
3. bring specs hooks for badminton
4. put in more money to bbdc account

ok that's about it :p after 2 weeks of no badminton, played for 3 hours today more or less. ok lah can't be more, just less. but anyway... damn shagged out by the end of the whole thing man. kept hitting the white tape. stupid shit. the number of fingers and toes wouldn't be enough to count the number of times i hit the tape. damn sian. got kinda frustrated at a certain point. quite sure the guys could sense it. but really really damn sian. lost dunno how many points coz i keep hitting the white tape. hit net understandable lah... just too low... but white tape... sian hahaha

anyway, something i've noticed after taking the train everyday for the past 2 months. u know all the advertisements they put up in the stations, about letting others alight first before boarding and keeping left on the escalator to allow those who wanna go faster pass? well there's this trend i've noticed that probably explains the reason why these advertisements are up in the first place. and that reason is... older chinese ladies. by older i mean those in their early to late 60s. and it's quite obvious these ladies have very strong china-ese background. whenever the train arrives, they're always the first to stand in front of the door and squeeze in, as if they're that small, and chiong for the seats. on the escalator, when everyone else is keeping left, the people walking on the right would be blocked by this elderly woman who seems oblivious to the fact that everyone else in front of her is keeping left. and it gets a little worst. when you have a group of these woman on the train, oh my tian (as tini would say), they have these conversations at elevated volumes in hokkien/cantonese/hakka/teochew. u name the dialect they use it. their loud volume is already irritating, but the tone in which they speak in, makes it even worst! it's so obvious they're complaining about something lah! and even if they aren't, they have THAT auntie kinda voice, u know, the kind that would irritate the hell out of you and make your hair stand if u listen to it long enough. so whenever i see a group of them, i quickly turn up the volume on my zen :p and when i'm stuck behind one of them on the escalator, i'd squeeze past if i could, otherwise i'd wait patiently behind, then once she clears the escalator i'd speed past her hahaha really damn irritating lah, and some wonder why we're not a very "civilised" society. oh well... just don't learn from these old-er ladies hahaha

tags:
sf: yeah u're faster than me at becoming slow... hmmm... anyway i'll try and find that slip of paper, but i think i have a vague idea of what was on it

bang: go buy lah!!! hahaha must protect them family jewels man. they don't need to be shaved that much :p

tini: FU!!! :) take care in NZ girl! go sheer some sheep and hear them bleat hahaha

what's done is done...

rule number 1 is...

rule number 1: the teacher is always right.

well results didn't come out today. and last friday when i went back to school to play vball most of the teachers who knew me said something along the lines of "u're a week early" or "see you next week". well turns out i won't be seeing them 'next week', and i still have jun hong's key hahaha oh well his other half has a key anyway so he's fine.

working night shift later. have a strong feeling we're going to end up doing carpark lights again... hmmm... anyway today marks the end of the 2nd last week of work for me hahaha ending as the month ends, so that i can do more of my own things. maybe i'll go play piano now for a while... but the yellowcard CD is really damn nice man... want to keep listening to it hahaha

rule number 1 ver. 2: the teacher is not always right

what's done is done...

i'm getting slow...

i think the lack of studying and thinking has gotten to me, because i'm getting slower hahaha i mean... cheryl has been working at cafe iguana for how long? almost a month? and i only found out last week that she that restaurant/bar is at riverside point, which is like less than 100m away from the hotel i work at? hahaha shufang will be so proud hur hur hur. so i went down after work yesterday to pay her a visit since i end at 11, and she supposedly was ending at 11 too, but it turned out her boss asked her to stay back to 12 to fold napkins... poor girl. so just chatted with her for a while, until this guy (assume it's her boss) asked me to not disturb her until she finished and he offered to buy me a drink at the bar! wah not bad hahaha but i said no since i had to catch the train home. and today she's not working!!! doubt i can see her tmr either, since i start at 11 and she ends at 11 hahaha see how lah... long time never disturb her le :p

watched the new season of CSI last night. man it's looking good hahaha i mean i even managed to stay awake lah, and watching ocean's twelve after that put me to sleep, which shows how good the new CSI is. and that tape is still kinda freaky man... the way he talks... just gives u an impending feeling of doom. luckily i got 1.5 months left to enjoy it. which means about 6 more episodes. cannot afford to miss a single one man! hahaha good stuff

talking about good stuff, i bought the new yellowcard album recently, titled lights and sounds, sounds good too! the 1st track is an instrumental man, and if u remember how good the instrumentals were in gifts and curses and only one, u'd just want to hear more hahaha the lyrics are really meaningful too. BUT!!! the album can't open on windows media player, so therefore i can't rip them and put them in my mp3 player!!! instead some weird media player that seemed to come with the CD opens and it doesn't allow u to do anything! not even change the titles as they appear on the screen!!! weird stuff man. really wanna put this album in my zen, so anyone got any ideas?

valentine's day... last year was the 1st time it had some sort of significance for me, because u know with girls around, every occasion is worth celebrating, with little notes and chocolates being passed around class. last year it was about friends. this year spent it with MOOMOO! hahaha since i ended work at 9, we didn't have much time to spend together. just sat at farrer park field and talked, laughed, and took funny pictures and videos :p i'm sure she still wants to delete some from my phone :p oh well we know we've got alot to go through, but we're going to try our best to go through them together :)

life's always throwing things at us, and they're only meant for you to do one thing, ovecome them.

what's done is done...

of volleyball and screwed up weather...

this morning went for my 3rd driving lesson. moved up to lesson 9 already. and apparently stage 1 ends at lesson 11 hahaha so not bad lah. average of 3 lessons per session. dunno how fast that is... but it's ok i guess. car stalled a couple of times on the road today. still not very used to coordinating my eyes and my feet. really alot of things to check lah. check for oncoming traffic, check left wing mirror, check left blind spot, accelerator down, clutch half up, clutch down, accelerator up, change to gear 2, clutch up accelerator down... blah blah blah hahaha have to admit it's kinda of fun to drive though, except my left leg gets a bit stiff after a while, coz of the constant motion of it to work the clutch hahaha

THEN! after that went to cj, for the 1st time since 16 december hahaha almost 3 months already. weather looked fine at first, nice and sunny, so i was damn happy, coz i was finally going to play vball and get some sun again!!! almost everyone i saw said i'm alot fairer now. even smith is darker than me lah! 1st thing mr ho said when we saw me was "you're alot fairer now eh?" all i could do was laugh, coz it was so damn true.

yah anyway... it started to rain soon after. then after a while it stopped and the sun came out. then after a while, it got cloudy and darker. then IT STARTED TO FRIGGIN' RAIN AGAIN!!! bloody hell... waited more than a month for this day lah! to actually get some damn sun into my skin!!! then it just started to rain!!! and rain = NO MORE SUN!!! ok loh... so we played in the rain in the hopes that the rain would stop and the sun would come out, but from the beginning of the 2nd round of rain i had a feeling it wouldn't really stop that soon, because it was a shower and still relatively bright, and those aren't passing showers. so yeah... the rain never stopped, and the people playing just got sianer and sianer, then came a point where no one felt like playing anymore, and that was when the sky opened up again and the rain got a hell lot heavier and the wind picked up, so being all wet, it started to get cold. and damn it u can't play vball when u're cold. so sat at the grandstand, and the rain never stopped after that until nightfall. by nightfall i was already home, playing god of war on ps2.

so the weather ruined my entire plan for like over a month. i expected to get a nice tan today, and sweat it all out. badminton makes me sweat too yes, but it's indoor. i'm an outdoor person, in case you haven't noticed. i need SUN! at the jelita busstop when just one bus out of 5 possibilities took so long to come, i found myself cursing and swearing. really damn fed up already lah. then something i've never thought about came to my mind instantly.

why on earth do i have not enough time to do all the things i've wanted to do since As ended? that's because i have a damn job! hahaha i've never been the kind of person who wants to do alot, or at least that's what i think, and i know i've never had the opportunity to do alot of things i've wanted to do, partly because i never had the creativity to do it, and secondly because i was sticking the the system, and doing what i had to do in order to survive in it. i'm sure you all know the system i'm talking about. it sucks up your energy, and ALL your time. i actually advised my juniors i met in school today to go to poly lah! wtf... nothing really wrong with poly anyway if u ask me, as long as you know what you are really interested in and want to do in the future, poly is the way you should go.

anyway, about the time and energy sapping job, yes i gain experience, which i agree is really useful for my future use, but then again i find myself working 7 days a week, and having to deal with irregular sleeping patterns, no energy left to do the things i want, and getting SHIT for pay. so... why am i putting up with this again? suddenly the appeal of this job is quickly losing steam, and i'm beginning to dread it. maybe i miss school, i know i miss my classmates, but i miss the feeling of doing the things that i've intended to do for SO DAMN LONG! it's not that i don't necessarily don't have the time, it's the energy you need to. i know what someone would say in circumstances like this, but sometimes it's plain bullshit.

what's done is done...

i also miss...

52. the feeling of playing basketball at bang's house...
53. ... on the week of O levels
54. running after derek trying to wassup him
55. wassuping derek in the toilet
56. wassuping derek with the door handle
57. wassuping derek with his own shoe
58. wassuping derek with the "today in history" book
59. sleeping sitting up in ACE camp
60. the morning macritchie runs during LLTC
61. laughing with zi xin, guo cheng, neo and shaunie
62. the absolutely spastic and pointless conversations with zi xin
63. the damn funny way joshua says "OEI!"
64. derek and ganesh wrestling
65. derek singing "you and me"
66. stoning outside class waiting for the next lesson
67. the early morning breeze on the 5th floor
68. running after sophie trying to *ahem* after she *ahem* me
69. the joyous feeling of blasting off robots in mechwarrior
70. the dreams i had when i was younger
71. the feeling that your dreams can actually come true
72. armwrestling

what are you missing?

what's done is done...

i miss...

1. volleyball at the beach
2. badminton anywhere
3. soccer in the netball court in HPPS
4. the care freeness of primary school
5. doing AVA duty backstage in HPPS
6. doing pushups in class for tang wing kee for screwing up mental sums
7. arguing with tan pek leng during chinese lessons
8. listening to miss "pikachu" tan during maths
9. imitating the mafia mama for English
10. campcraft
11. trying my best to give inspirational lectures to cadets, some work, some don't
12. scaring the hell out of campers at ATC
13. doing drills with my squadmates
14. my squadmates! (xiang zheng, justin, yang wei, ian, eng hao, alphonsus, darren, ben inami, brendan, chew yi, shem, ben tay, sachdev, vince, ben loh, brian, wei xiang, wee hsien, david, shawn)
15. laughing in push up position...
16. ... and being the 1st squad to ever do that
17. soccer in the hockey pitch after trainings with a size 3 ball
18. ramming the ball all the way to esso
19. hearing people scream "MARCUS!!! NNNOOOOOO!!!!"
20. being more tired from laughing than the soccer itself
21. "LIM ZUI HOH! LIM ZUI HOH! LIM ZUI LIM ZUI SI BEI HOH! LIM AH!!!"
22. my final annual parade at SJI
23. the wonderful feeling of completing 4 years of service as a cadet
24. the feeling of success when i got 10 points (bloody miracle)
25. arguing with shufang
26. laughing evilly in cheryl's ear
27. hanging out in class at the end of the day
28. noodle king
29. mass pe
30. me and vig trying to reach the ceiling with our elbows
31. having the energy and time and will to exercise at home
32. having the time to play the piano
33. cycling fast with the wind against my face
34. running after the bus with bang (damn 156)
35. paying mr lim GST
36. tini stepping on my shoes for fun
37. cheryl drawing on my arm
38. mr kwee the zao sia master
39. vig's insane laughter
40. jamming with fragile
41. dancing in my room
42. shouting in the shower
43. playing with my dogs
44. having "conversations" with my sister
45. planning events
46. pushball! that was fun while it lasted
47. training with glenn and poyew, flagpole team 2002
48. doing drills in class with joshua when we're absolutely bored
49. being able to sleep for 10 hours everyday
50. climbing up and down stuff
51. my moo moo :)

what are you missing?

what's done is done...