ubin ubin ubin...

tired man... but atc is worst hahaha more challenging. but today was ok i guess... needed to do some shifting around coz of the little mess at the beginning, but at the end there was still not enough time for everyone to try everything. had a little fun with the tunnel right at the end, but didn't get to go through it myself lah. didn't try anything actually, coz didn't have indemnity form.

feel like i'm losing it. losing the "touch". guess will need to see over the course of the next few months how they do. crunch time after august 8 i guess, but will be long out of unit by then. but really the only time i can do whatever i wanna do is UTC... after that i won't have any other really significant opportunity to do it. i want to make an impact on them! i want them to realise the importance of what they have to do, and why they have to do it! but nothing is as easy at it seems...

what's done is done...

normality...

CTs are over, finally... physics is the best of all the papers. if i fail this... i think i can go run into a wall or a tree, or something immovable. it was quite do-able lah.

after school got chinese results. got C6!! WAHAHAHA NO MORE CHINESE!!! WAHAHAHA WOOHOO!!!!! wah tired...

after tt went to jam... but we got there like 3 minutes late, and the uncle gave the room away to another group. so gotta go back on sunday again... haiz stupid uncle. 3 minutes also cannot wait. just coz koon "never" answer his phone (and u dialled the wrong number), u give the room away lah. wah lao so screwed up man...

after that came back to school for volley. not many people stayed behind lah. just dug and dug and dug. spiked a few times... but was kinda tired before it even started lah, so throughout didn't feel too alright. then mr lim came and pulled me and derek aside... told us to train harder coz he saw the match against yj. felt damn bad after that lah... felt friggin' guilty.

met paul and nizar at the busstop after their NPDP trg. need to talk to them more lah. find out about what they're going through these days in trg. guess UTC will be the best possible date. sec 3s too... need to talk to all of them lah!!! many many things to talk about. on the bus... flooded with tchs and rv np cadets man. hard to think i was in their position 4 years ago... back in sec 2. scary man. plus i took part in it last year as well. seems so damn far away lah... but then again it seems quite near as well hahaha

tmr go ubin... sit down there and stone hahaha at least get to get out of singapore, the mainland at least, and just spend a day in the sun. slaaaaaaaaaaaaaack =D

oh yeah... didn't get to tell you this the other day, and hopefully u still read my blog. all i want is your friendship lah, nothing more. i can't expect anything more than that. but having less than that... will be really quite sucky lah. last year was really fun, but now sometimes i wish it hadn't been so... oh well...

what's done is done...

hmmm...

well... maths... starting was ok, kinda... ok it wasn't tt great hahaha kept telling myself not to panic, like i've done on the previous few occasions. but yah it was cold in the hall... had fun keeping my piss in :p

since ended at 11, went to TP eat macs... came back to school and mugged physics, and continued learning how to relax hahaha. hmmm actually i mugged the TYS... but that's the same thing. after like... 2.5 hours in the library. came out for vball. can run arnd already lah ankle is OKAY!

tmr after physics must stay back along with t18 and t20 for maintenance duties, aka keep the tables and chairs in the audi. after tt 1 pm release of chinese results. after tt 2 to 4 go jamming, rehearse for rockafella, after tt come back to cj for VOLLEYBALL!!! ok i'm on a vball high... play too much vball already. and junhong is staying in CJ!!! WAHAHAHAHA yeah man... got more hope liao hahaha

shing gathem gathem! what's done is done...

2 more shitty papers...

maths and physics left. well at least there are fewer chapters than econs... but i guess they are cheemer, thus the reason for fewer chapters? hmmm... well maths there's differentiation, integration and trigo. the 3 big fat ass chapters in A level maths hahaha physics... only 4 chapters. biggest is superposition lah. damn waves and wavelets.

econs today... ok lah... i hope. maybe... just MAYBE i can pass hahaha i mean i did worst for econs during promos lah, not counting GP of course. hopefully it's ok. couldn't really study after school. went to library with classmates, and just kept falling asleep. then after i managed to wake up, couldn't really focus. throughout the whole day... didn't really accomplish much lah. was staring at my trigo and differentiation notes, really dunno how much went in. towards the end after i went to wash my face for the 2nd time, and hung around in the toilet for a while, felt better lah. not in studying sense, but in the mood sense. didn't feel so down and out after that. but still couldn't study lah. so just went the the shelves directly next to where i was sitting, and pulled out this book called "learn to relax" hahaha showed it to my classmates and the other odac ppl at the other table... everyone just laughed hahaha felt good :p then after tt i just kept telling everyone to relax, while pointing to the cover of the book :p lame shit lah, nothing better to do. after tt felt like eating macs, so went TP with josh to have my nuggets meal hahaha haven't had macs for quite a while actually.

as u probably can tell, i feel quite good now, surprisingly. didn't think i'd feel so much better, but i do! hahaha maybe coz i finally managed to get it off my chest, hearing it directly from you instead of someone else, and finally getting rid of the temptation to just assume (as josh says it... making an ASS out of U and ME). yeah never assume... it's baaaaaad ;) so yet again... THANKS =D

feel like running tmr morning... yeah i might sound a bit crazy, going for a run before a maths common test paper hahaha but i haven't gone running for more than a week man! need to get some blood pumping to my legs again. would do grandstands if my ankle wasn't so messed up, so i think i'd just run and see how it holds out. right ankle is really weakened now... after that slip a couple of weeks back. wonder how to strengthen it again, don't wanna kenna sprained ankle during NS. their sick leave = sai kang hahaha rather go bashing through forests with friends than do sai kang by myself. the lone SKF :p didn't play any piano today... feels weird hahaha fingers itchy lah, maybe tt's why i can type so much now :p

oh well... 2 more days of CTs, while lucky people like sophie ng have already finished and have 4 days of pure SLACK! *ahem ahem* shing gathem gathem!

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here i go again on my nightly roller coaster rides. not bad eh, get free front row seats! hah! doesn't help i guess that your name keeps popping up.

GP yesterday... dead. gone case. head on chopping board. toast.

econs tomorrow... well i've never passed an econs test since school started, so probably can guess how it will go.

the only place i can find peace in now is while playing my piano. nothing else appears in my head except the song, and everytime i stop, i get a rush of thoughts to my head again. as if the tunes coming out were dams... stopping the relentless torrents of "thoughts" from rushing into my head.

1 week of march holz won't be enough. life's just peachy.