exam results........

preliminary reports from teachers has not been good. A maths paper 2 done badly, physics and chem paper 2 section B done badly, chem MCQ is fucked up completely!!!! the whole day was getting from bad to horrible to atrocious!!!! beginning to wonder whether is it i'm not working hard enuff, or if the papers were just too difficult for me to handle. suddenly thinking about backing out from CI course, but i think it is unlikely that i will be able to. i don't think i need any extra workload to weigh me down right now.......especially next year, if i intend to pick up my ass again and get moving!! At the rate i'm going there's NO WAY i can enter JC for 1st 3 months, and if i cannot go into JC, i haf absolutely no idea how my parents are going to react, because my mum seems completely reluctant for me to get into poly, even though it doesn't seem like such a bad idea. Damn it so many ppl in my family are all thinkers, results are all top class, all go study medicine, accounting and all cheem cheem stuff, then now if i don't do well..........dunno wtf to do liao!! :( I feel as though my results have been on a slide downhill ever since sec 1............and i can't bloody hell find a way to stop it! this year was even worse, with the worst results i've ever gotten for an exam. I 1st failed a subject in an exam in sec 2, chinese, but this year mid year, failed 2!! slide slide slide........roll roll roll........PLUNGE PLUNGE PLUNGE!! soon i'm gonna end up a bloody mess on the floor and ppl will trample all over me and my life will flash and shatter and crumble before my very eyes and i'll be powerless to do anything about it. The only consolation i can take out of this year is the many lessons i've learnt from running SJI NPCC and the many more friends i've made be it classmates or CCA mates, but otherwise, i don't think i've accomplished much else.

what the hell is my life becoming, and where on earth am i heading???

today was the most unproductive day in my entire SJI career, one which is sadly coming to an end!! sat in the PAC for 90% of the day, just rehearsing for Grad & Speech day. i dunno abt you, but i'll definitely miss my alma mater. made alot of great friends there, managed to learn alot from my seniors and teachers (and i don't just mean textbook stuff). school for us officially ends on 16 October, with graduation and speech day being this saturday (4 Oct). Results back next monday..........dead........ really praying hard tt i did well enuff to at least get into a JC.

just now while eating lunch, was watching AXN, showing "world's wildest police videos". the one tt was showing then was one about a prank being played on a junior officer by a senior officer. then i thought, "u mean they haf so much extra manpower until they've got time to play pranks ah?!!?!" i doubt u will see this sort of thing in singapore!

decided to re-start my revision today since i've been playing for 4 days already. should be enuff of a break for me..........Thank goodness now TYS' is more useful, since it is ALOT more relevant than when we were doing prelims. must do alot more for maths. for Os i looking for A1 in physics, eng, and both maths....... Ora Et Labora, pray and work.........prayed already, time to work. Cheers.

heyaz, this blog thingy is kinda confusing, but i'm going to try and learn myself..........My dad is forcing me to start revision for Os tomorrow, and keeps insisting tt the day of release of prelim results is too late. Well i guess there is some truth in it, but now i feel like crap!! Cheers.

Just had the feeling to start a blog............dunno y also, must be becoz my mind is rather relaxed after the prelims and becoz of the Linkin Park music in the background! Last 3 days pretty standard. Only did 2 main things, play computer and play soccer. As you can see pretty much of play now, but once results are out, time for intensive study, a.k.a. CHIONG AAAHHHH!!! hopefully u ppl can also enjoy this brief moment of rest before the final lap (as all teachers put it). Cheers.