bloody GP...

the paper was by my standards... of. but then when i read my compo, it felt so damn powerless, no 'umph' as some people would put it. got 24/50 for the past 2 tests, hoepfully can improve upon that this time. compre, i felt the same as my previous test, which i got 15/50 for. well i guess that's better than 8/50 for my first compre test hahaha. just hope for the best.

the most 1.5 weeks of my life officially began yesterday, with CIP in the morning and afternoon, then CI meeting at barker in the evening, then stayed over at LW's place. this morning left early for ubin, and came home rather late. a runthrough of the unfolded events...

CIP in the morning, was selling for KDF, Kidney Dialysis Foundation. not NKF, those people have too much money already. anywayz me and joshua walked around a small section of toa payoh but couldn't get much. just too much competition... there were NJ people who started earlier than us, and they were EVERYWHERE!!! like little bugs that couldn't be squashed, no offense :) then met shu fang and her judo friend at macs somewhere in toa payoh too, then they so kindly helped joshua and i collect some money. they managed to do in one hour what we did in like 2 hours... such failures guys are at collecting money, girls are so much better at doing it.

anywayz after that went to st joseph's home again, for the final time. this time attendance was the poorest. only like 12 people including kwee went. damn pathetic number... less than half the class. but oh well, did the same old normal routine with them, exercises and pushing them around. interesting experience lah, seeing all these elderly folk living out their lives in a home. i'm hoping that i'll become like some of them, and definitely not like some others...

after that rushed back home, showered, packed up and left for ACS barker for CI meeting. still haven't been able to have a meeting where ALL area CIs are able to make it. quite sad lah... anywayz discussed quite a lot of things, managed to cover quite a few things. after the meeting, i drew my chicken on the board, and ivy drew her hairy pig... looked rather disgusting actually, but oh well... all depends on how people look at it.

then og Newton Circus eat dinner, bloody waste of money. rice so friggin' bland, satay rather small, chicken so damn oily could feel it oozing, bloody sick. then go LW's house, i fell asleep on the floor in the living room while they were watching tv. really cannot tahan, just konked out on the floor. then suddenly heard a car horn, then jay jay left, and went upstairs to sleep. wah karen on the bed cannot stop talking loh, us 3 guys on the floor trying to sleep, then after a while we were the noise makers, then after a while our mouths got tired then we fell asleep :p

early morning wake up go ubin, eat breakfast at changi village. cycle cycle cycle... explore a bit, don't know how on earth ta hoong can remember where to go so well, ass burning, damn seat on the bike is the old one with no suspension and bloody narrow, even now when i sit down my ass hurts. luckily the thing in front of my ass doesn't hurt after what i had to do to prevent banging into this kid who suddenly ran in front of me. the bike i got today just sucked lah... kept squeaking, tore my track pants, pedals don't always hook with the chain, causing my leg to slip now and then. first time recce the bike was so nice!!! can bounce around and it wouldn't hurt at all!!! forced me to go queensway to buy 2 new trackpants. anyway i guess it was about time, the track pants that tore were from my sec 2 days hahahaha... old stuff, tight around the waist too.

now at home... coming up with funny ideas regarding certain people again, don't know why also... getting all these weird notions of what people are thinking, but they do make a BIT of sense lah thanks goodness!!! gotta meet cindy sometime this week to get my backpack back for ATC... but don't know when to also... schedule so damn packed. time to makan my 2nd dinner. Cheers!

First exam of JC...

GP paper will be on friday. tomorrow got no school as they want to give us a "day to study". well i guess it's a good idea, since GP isn't going well for ANYONE at the moment. everyone's failing... or at best JUST passing. damn AQ questions... so mafan.

anyway june ain't exactly a very peachy time for me either... going to paste my schedule here to remind me what the hell i've got on during the first 1.5 weeks of june holidays (30/5 - 9/6).

30/5:
Recee at Ubin (0730 to late afternoon)

31/5:
Lessons: 0800 - 1200
PW: 1330 - 1500
Volleyball training: 1500 - 1700

1/6:
Lessons: 0900 - 1200
Volleyball training: 1500 - 1700

3/6 - 5/6:
UTC!!!!!!!

4/6:
Lessons: 0800 - 1100

5/6:
CIP: 0800 - 1200

6/6:
Last day of NCOTC: 0730 - 1730

7/6 - 9/6:
Sec 2 ATC at Ubin

woah so cool... the only day i'm free is the 2nd of june!!! after i get back from Ubin, rest for a couple of days then must chiong studies for mid-year already!!! must do better than my CA loh... CA already quite f-ed up :( going to be doing alot of running between SJI and CJC, hahaha one of the reasons why i wanted to get into CJ was because of it's close proximity to SJI, and i guess it's all paid off!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!! Cheers.

The Rules for being human...

got this from an email xin sent to me...

1. You will receive a body.
You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for the entire period.

2. You will learn lessons.
You are enrolled in an informal school called Life. Each day in this school, you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons.
Growth is a process of trial and error. Experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately "works".

4. A lesson is repeated until learned.
A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. You can then go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lessons does not end.
There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

6. "There" is no better than "here."
When your "there" has become a "here," you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."

7. Others are merely mirrors of you.
You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you either love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you.
You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie inside you.
The answers to Life's questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen and trust.

10. You will forget all this.

~by Cherie Carter-Scott~


the last rule REALLY got me thinking... think about it too yah? Cheers.

original sin on star movies... tomb raider on cinemax... the animal on HBO, formula one monaco race on star sports, all on the same timeslot. never had so many choices on cable TV before hahaha.

The return of the killer maths...

last night (or shall i say early this morning) was doing maths... listening to the Bond music looping infinitely in this blog :p managed to finish one tutorial in the end. quite glad that i managed to finish it. but when i moved onto the next one, i just felt... tired. couldn't keep my eyes open already. struggled on till about 3.30, then i lay on the floor with my head on my thick ass file, and dozed off. all this while i left my blog window open, so of course the music was still playing. next thing i woke up it was 6.06, and the first thing i heard was... BOND!!! hahaha, but the first thing i felt was my tailbone hurting like hell :p damn wooden floor. so this morning slept for 2.5 hours in my half CJ uniform, hadn't showered the previous night. so got up and showered. stoned around for the whole morning, and now i'm going back to do my maths soon. should get around to my physics and econs soon, but got to finish this damn maths first.

music without much lyrics is more suited for blogs i find, since you're kind of preoccupied reading, you don't want more words floating through your mind. maybe i should find a more soothing Bond song... but i guess this will do for now.

You practise favouritism... what a sucky attitude... i feel sorry for myself now, and for those who have suffered the same as me, and for those to come.

Cheers.