it's ended?!?!
it's the 31st of december 2004, the end of yet another leap year. i think it's fitting that i reflect on the year gone by, since it is indeed my 1st year out of sji after 4 wonderful years there.
start on the last 3 days 1st lah. wednesday met mad for supposedly 3 movies. O12, fockers and national treasure. we managed to catch the 1st and last one, because fockers was only showing after 7 at both cinemas we went to, and we both had to go home for dinner. O12 is cool, smart movie. i like this kind of movies, coz right at the end you just go... "OH!" then a while later you go... "woahhhh..." hahaha national treasure was exciting sia. action packed, and i like history as well, so that's another reason why i like the movie. also having recently read Angels & Demons by Dan Brown, managed to draw a few relationships to a few of the names mentioned, so i was quite awake hahaha
yesterday went for class chalet at downtown east in pasir ris. 2nd chalet during this holz. 1st one if you'll read earlier was with sji guys lah. by the afternoon most of the people who were coming had already come. i see if i can remember... from t19... me, louis, derek, joshua, wee koon, xuan rui, vignesh, clarrisa, tini, cheryl, shufang, man yun, elisa. yeah tt's all from t19. got ppl from other class also lah, moose, marcus goh, nigel, mao qing, ben chen, ben tay and don. so as u can see that's quite alot of people. played xbox, daidee, blackjack, and talked lots of cock in the afternoon. when the girls played xbox ah... i learnt a very important lesson. never EVER on any circumstances, let girls play games which involves 2 people fighting. reason being? they scream so damn much, that i felt like my ear drums were going to burst. i mean we were in an enclosed room, doors closed, and just the tv on, and they're there screaming and screaming, taking turns every 2 seconds or so when they get hit hahaha it's so bloody amusing lah, all i could do was laugh out loud... but curse inside me :p
just as they were setting up the fire, ben and i left for mr ghazali's house for his farewell dinner. he's FINALLY retiring from sji npcc, after saying that he was going to retire every year since i was in like... sec 2? hahaha but yah his presence will be missed. was my OC for 3 years, adjutant for 2, so obviously i've worked with him quite a few times, working on projects and stuff, just getting advice on certain things lah. it was... interesting i should say... working with a character like him :p
so anywayz at his house met up with, as glenn puts it, the "old guards of sji npcc" hahaha lots of "old" people there hahaha from oldest fo youngest (by year only)... mr ghazali, mr lee, eric (HO from sec 1-3), jack (CI sec 1-3), chee ching, yong yao (sec 1 squad commander, CI when in sec 2 and 3), yi xiang (NCO in sec 2, CI in sec 3 and 4), calvin, glenn & kah wee (NCO sec 3, CI Sec 4 and this year), me, brendan, ben tay, ronald and johnsten. as you can see... everyone whose name is in front of mine is older than me, and that's a long way back hahaha but it's good to see them lah, the oldies as i call them hahaha about 5 of them are in NS now, so couldn't come out yesterday because they were stuck in camp. wah imagine... if one day all the past and present CIs of sji npcc got together with the only 2 officers around when CIs started functioning... the raw power and aura filling up the room sia hahaha i would feel so... honoured, coz i mean these people would've screwed the hell out of me as a cadet lah, but then in the end all i have for them is respect lah, coz they bothered to come back to do their little extra bit to help.
after all gathering at the house, we headed to a nearby seafood hawker centre and just ate and ate. sat with HO eric and mr ghazali, and the other "younger" ones hahaha managed to "extract" some information from mr ghazali about the rumour of girls coming to sji, and there'll never be girls in sji!!! WOOHOO!!! hahaha it's just a misconception lah i guess. oh well glad i got that one out of the way.
so after the dinner and talk, headed back to mr ghazali's house to watch kill bill vol. 1. wah it's damn bloody, but so bloody until it looks like some japanese anime in real life, that it gets so funny, with fountains of blood everywhere. i mean u'd need to have super duper high blood pressure for your blood to squirt, i mean explode, out like a fountain when your head gets sliced off lah!!! hahaha so gross tt it's funny. but as mr lee said, girls will never enjoy this kind of shows, only guys can fully appreciate it's lameness :p
had to leave before the end of the movie in order to catch the last few trains that were still headed to pasir ris. so bren went home, and ben and i headed back to downtown east. after that... the t20 guys got drunk, so drunk that they were playing around in bed damn it! not that kind of playing lah... but just... cannot go to sleep tt kind of playing. made so much friggin' noise. i tell you if we recorded the entire conversation, we could've sold it on the internet and made a profit lah!!! damn friggin' funny wat they were all saying, but damn friggin' irritating as well. vig and i played xbox till like 3 am, when we got really tired, and we TRIED to go to sleep, but to no avail until 4+.
woke up to a rainy day. and according to pang tze wei, his theory is that due to the tsunami, all the water has evaporated and blown over to singapore, causing it to rain more here. well u've heard of the big bang theory... and you've just witnessed the bang theory, unfortunately this one seems quite full of shit :p everytime we wanted to leave the chalet, it started to rain. and our slippers were outside so we got wet, and clean shoes to wear home hahaha after that came straight home lah, not much, just that it rain rain rain :p
ok this is going to be a long entry. oh well...
anywayz this year has been... eventful. last year was eventful as well, but the type of events are just very different. this year lots of people struggled to find themselves, seeked the way they were supposed to take, simply because it's a whole new environment, and lots of people in CJ are from single-sex secondary schools, so it just gets more interesting in JC hahaha if you were actually bored enough to flip back through my archives to my entries from december 2003, u'd probably realise most of what i was worried about, really didn't come to fruition at all :p so i kinda worried for nothing, but really, what next year holds in store for me, i'll never know. don't really want to guess anymore, coz it doesn't really help at all.
but this year for me, it's been fun. met loads of new people whom i love alot. life would've been so much more boring without them, coz i'd have fewer people to bully, right shufang? ;) so far she's the only one who can put up with all my bullshit lah. don't know how she does it either... but i can't help but wonder how different life would be if i was in another JC, say SA or AJ... would i be the same person i am at this moment in time? would i have developed in this year the same way? would i have joined the same CCA? would i have made the same kind of friends? i'll never know... but one cannot help but wonder.
unfortunately, this year for the world... to put it simply... has been f-ed up. war, disease, natural disasters, everything bad u can think of has taken place this year. it's cost millions of lives all over the world, and the death toll is still rising even to this very minute! quite a screwed up world we live in don't u agree?
about the recent tsunami, i was thinking that if something like this happened say 1500 years ago, people would've probably thought that they had angered some gods, and that the rumbling of the earth was expression of their dissatisfaction and the towers of water would be them just teaching man their lesson, giving people the idea to fear god. lucky we don't live in that age anymore... but yet some people say that governments did not have any prepared action plans in case situations like this occured, but really, if governments had to come up with action plans for every kind of disaster on every scale, i really wonder how many plans they'd have! and yes... many people have lost their lives, but what has happened could in no way have been prevented, some can blame the scientists for not being able to calculate and foresee this disaster, but it was inevitable lah, u might see me as unsympathetic after reading this, but what's been done has been done, we'll should not mourn the losses for too long, it does us no good, we'll should instead help out the survivors in any way possible, which is more or less what is going on right now as i can see from today's papers.
oh well since this entry is already so long, and i'd applaud you for reading this far, might as well just put some song lyrics as well. quite fitting for the end of the year for me i'd say...
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Linkin Park - Faint
I am
little bit of loneliness
a little bit of disregard
a handful of complaints
but i can't help the fact
that everyone can see these scars
i am
what i want you to want
what i want you to feel
but it's like
no matter what i do
i can't convince you
to just believe this is real
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got
i can't faint
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
i am
a little bit insecure
a little unconfident
cause you don't understand
i do what i can
but sometimes i don't make sense
i am
what you never want to say
but i've never had a doubt
it's like no matter what i do
i can't convince you
for once just to hear me out
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got
i can't faint
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
no
hear me out now
you're gonna listen to me
like it or not right now (2X)
i can't feel
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
i can't faint
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
i can't faint
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
~~~
carpe diem. seize the day. it's new year's eve!!! :)
Friday, December 31, 2004
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
i always think too much...
always think of the worst case scenarios... then will just over-react, simply blowing things way out of proportion. i need to relax... to calm down... and basically... to breathe. carpe diem.
it all comes back to me in the end...
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Monday, December 27, 2004
counting down to school...
school starts in exactly a weeks time. sian ji bua!!! don't want school to start sia... feels like this holz is not long enough, even though it was longer than the O level one. hmmm...
so today supposed to go BANG's house to swim, but he had 404 class lunch, so never swim in the end. woke up at 12, eat lunch, slack around, around 3 went out for a jog coz it was kinda cloudy. jialat man my legs cannot move. never run for too long liaoz. volleyball doesn't encompass running, so i'm all stiff. after tt got home took a shower, played railroad tycoon for a while then left for somerset.
met neo, shaun, gc, xin and sean tan!!! he came back from UK for the holz lah, and i haven't seen him for a year, so must go man hahaha he's grown taller, but skinnier. he sounds the same, and acts the same way, so nothing really missed hahaha went to taka to eat seoul garden... lots of meat. meat meat meat hahaha only a few fishballs and crabsticks here and there. oh yah and the occasional sausage. there was beef, chicken, fish. the typical meats lah.
after that went to atrium to play lan. i suck at it, nothing new hahaha too humji :p or just plain lousy aiming... but i did manage to kill ppl by chionging into their faces hahaha
after tt they'll went to swissotel to find TPL, but i had to come home, better safe than sorry lah. still wonder what she was doing there hahaha
school starting soon ah!!! sian!!! but at least can see friends again hahaha imagine... 1st day of school... a sea of white. such wonderful memories... hahaha carpe diem!
