past 3 gypsies and 1 month is gone...

this sunday marks the end of my 1st month in sispec. after this... the going's gonna get really tough, with section training kicking into effect at the end of this week. imagine... spending a whole day outfield, consuming combat rations till u probably can't shit, coming back late at night only to spend hours cleaning your weapon and your equipment, before u have to prepare for the next day, then right the end you can clean up yourself. repeat that cycle everyday until week 8. then after that add in wanderer, grandslam and nutcracker, and u'll have one hell of a time in sispec hahaha

well the one good thing about the mad training is that you don't have much time to stone in the bunk and think. of course staying in the bunk is good coz u can rest, but when u stay in the bunk and have too much energy, you start thinking of what your friends are doing outside, how much fun they're having, and all the wonderful food they're eating, and if they've already watched pirates of the carribean (btw i haven't for reasons pertaining to very late bookout timings) these 4 weeks has passed by pretty quickly thanks to the fact they don't let us think too much. either we're focusing on the lesson, or we're fast asleep in it. usually it's the former, because if it's the latter then we'd be introduced to "jack". in charlie coy... jack refers to jumping jacks. the instructors just call "him" jack hahaha

anyway i'm done with ippt test. no more for the next 1.5 months. silver is good enough for me, mainly because my running timing is far off from the gold standard, so i'm settling for a silver. soc test next week i think. but then... i'm far off from passing man!!! i just can't bloody run with the equipment on me. maybe it's the way i run or something, but i just find it bloody tiring :( but whatever the case, i intend to pass it before my OC takes away my day off in the 9th week.

this will be the last week of lessons in the lecture rooms. got to enjoy the aircon while i still can, because after this the only aircon we'll get is probably from the platoon office hahaha 1.5 more months to a corporal. it's going to be a very trying time... but many have gotten through charlie coy, and i'm sure i can to!

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welcome to charlie company...

2 weeks of sispec bslc training gone. 8 more weeks to go. honestly i'm not in much of a mood to blog. but i just wanna write some stuff down so that i won't leave like a huge gap in my blog, especially during this highly challenging part of my life. it's not as if the other companies don't have tough training as well, but there's always something about charlie that makes people say that it has the toughest training. so far the standard has been set, and can tell it's higher than alpha and bravo, but there are things they do that is slightly more tiring than us, for example running to SOC start point whilst we march there. but the sgts always ensure we put in our effort for soc lah. but then again, it's only the 1st 2 weeks. from week 5 to 7, we'll be going outfield everyday for section training. not outfield means long 4 sbo helmet rifle and jungle. jungle = mud. mud = leopard crawl in mud hahaha wonder how much more we'll do. and i just recently found out that my section commander signed on with the army simply because he likes to chiong sua... such a wonderful prospect hahaha after that still got grandslam on tekong. back to where it all began hahaha

this week... not SOOOO bad lah. had 2 SOCs, 1 speed training and 1 AGR. and the rest of time was spent in lectures and learning about weapons lah. really rushing syllabus for that man. like one day lesson, following day test already hahaha but it's quite learnable lah. they always try to make their weapons as idiot proof as possible, which is always a good thing =)

next week... learn more weapons, SOC and IPPT. booking out at night again. for 4 weeks booking out at night man. kinda sucks... but oh well, life must go on i guess. but i must admit, life in sispec could be alot worst. my section is turning out to be quite a good section! i've got quite an 'on' buddy, and my sectionmates are generally quite hardworking, except the one or 2 who only works when he really has to, but otherwise we're ok. not as united as my bmt one lah, but i'm sure we'll get there after all the outfield training we've got to go through together.

oh yes... and how could i forget... i've passed my driving test!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA not bad for someone who's driven only once a month since bmt started =p but i had to miss live firing for it. but at least i passed! so didn't waste my half day leave hahaha before i booked in again went to eat macs with my dad. really glad that he could pick me up from home and send me to the driving centre and back again. so didn't have to leave the house earlier and rush around, including back to camp. had a nice filling dinner before i headed back to camp.

now my bookout time is floating away in front of my eyes. every bookout now i face the same dilemma. to have proper rest at home for the next week of training, or go out and enjoy my bookout time as much as possible. it's tough making decisions like this, especially when you only have about 24 hours of bookout time to do whatever you want, and whatever you have to do. don't even have time to meet my classmates now. that really sucks man... but then again that's the price of being a physically fit singaporean male.

tags:
glenn: going to ord soon man! jiayou to then end! my ord in 2008 sia... long way more to go hahaha

xin: yeah those were fun times sia. but trust me... u'll have more fun in the army hahaha take care man! see you around one day hopefully...

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost

infantry to the end...

checked my posting this morning, and now i'm on my way to sispec to be an infantry leader. at first when i saw the word sispec for my posting, i felt kinda disappointed, but when i saw my vocation as infantry leader, my heart skipped a few beats. after that images of me running around in the jungle, with the infamous sbo helmet rifle and camo all on me, for the rest of my time in army. man that was horrible. trying to fathom how much camo cream and insect repellent i'll be using over the next year.

then after that started to find out where everyone else was going. alot of people are going where we never thought they would. louis is going to scdf man!!! wtf... from ninja company and ippt gold, going to scdf. he'll definitely be an officer there. couple of combat medics, 2 signallers from my section, and 3 other guys from my section who're in the same boat as me. so i'll be seeing them in sispec on monday morning.

going to sispec wouldn't have been so bad if i got to arti or armour at least. then i could have a chance to learn something new and INTERESTING. going to infantry would be like going to bmt again, only that it's tougher lah obviously. but there's nothing exciting to learn about! ok lah probably get to use the SAR21 and have to clean it over and over again, but what else is so exciting? haiz...

anyway i've told myself that there's nothing i can do about it now, since bmt is long over and the next part of my life is about to begin. and seeing as how NS is just a short 2 year phase in my life, i should just focus on getting it over with. but then again, i don't think i'd want to stay in sispec throughout. if i do well enough i might just get posted to OCS midway through. that'd be cool if i could do that. just gotta try my best now and pray that they like my psychological profile enough to put me in ocs hahaha

yesterday she left for bangkok to go shopping with her friends. yet again, part of me wanted to let her go, and part of me didn't want to. watching her walk away as she went to join her friends to check in her luggage, i felt the loneliness in me grow gradually. i know that from now onwards i won't be able to spend as much time with her as i did even in bmt. i'm definitely going to be more tired and less able to go out. and because i'm more tired, it could make me more edgy, but i hope that that wouldn't be the case. just hope that she's enjoying herself now before she has to come back to work then after that off to further studies for her. hope the day will quickly come when we can really spend time together again.

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost

"DAMN IT!"

i exclaimed that countless times today. at first it was because of the horrendous weather. when we reached the beach station it starting pouring cats and dogs. i mean it rained until the brand new roof at the beach station started leaking pretty badly. there was one humongous leak in the middle of no where and rain was coming down as if it was a rain gutter or something. plus ger and soph were really late. so wendy, lina and i spent about 1.5 hours standing arnd waiting for them as kids played with all the water on the floor thanks to the "rain gutter"

so yeah we did go to play in the end. as predicted it was cold. but not to the extent that one would shiver. at first it was really shitty man. that's when the damn its started hahaha couldn't even dig properly at first. after a while the digging and setting got ok. then came the part for me to spike. oh man it was horrigible at first hahaha the ball didn't even wanna go straight, much less over the net and in =P but things got really fun when we changed to a less hole-y net. and why did it get fun? because the net was LOWER!!! just what a confidence ridden guy needs in volleyball hahaha after that spiking the ball was a really shiok feeling. it never once failed to go over after that hahaha i really love the feeling of flying through the air with the wind below your feet, raising up the arm and just whacking the ball down with a nice loud "PIAK" hahaha really a damn nice feeling when you see the ball spinning nicely and going straight for the ground. WOOHOO!!! hahaha

off to chalet tomorrow! anything to contact me about just sms me...

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost

totally random and unchronological stuff...

ok now i'm wondering if i spelt unchronological correctly... damn it! after bmt... i realise that now more than ever, i spend more time thinking about whether words i've typed are spelt correctly, and trying to figure out the right word to use in certain sentences. the word is always in the back of my mind, but i just can't bring it to the front. so i spend some time staring at the screen, trying to figure out what on earth that word is. sad to say, most of the time i just come up with another phrase to replace that one word. point is... army has made me slower. hopefully it only happens for the bmt phase. because if this occurs over the rest of army, i'm severely screwed. really starting to wonder how much of my physics and maths i'll remember from jc after 2 years. i can hardly remember my english! =(

up till now i can't find the cable for my video camera, and that really sucks coz i can't transfer the video to my comp. a handful of people have asked for the video already, and i can't give it to them!!! if i don't find it by tomorrow, then i'll only be able to send the video thursday or later. damn that sucks. wonder if i can buy the cable from anywhere...

tomorrow i'll be going to sentosa for some volleyball. finally. as (thinks of word for a while) unexcited (don't know what better word to use) as i might sound, i'm looking forward to it. i'm just tired. after sleeping at 2230 every night for 2 months and waking up at 0515 every morning, your body tends to adjust. and now sleeping at 2 plus every night is seriously screwing me up. surprisingly now it's only about 11.20. this is like the earliest night i've had at home since POP hahaha ok lah the reason is quite obvious. coz tonight i'm not out with wendy =p

and i think i really need to start exercising. don't wanna get rusty after all the training in bmt. then when i go to wherever i'm posted, i'll have to try harder all over again. now that's not very good... not good at all. even a simple jog will do for me. but with me sleeping at such wee hours, it'll be hard to find a good time to run. and i really need to work on my abs too... since i've POP-ed, i've eaten macs 3 times, burger king 2 times and pizza hut one time hahaha all the oil and fat is coming back to me. but then again i could just say that i'm enjoying now.

i'm feeling tired, but i also don't feel like sleeping. i bet if i lay down somewhere now i would fall asleep, but somehow i'd much rather stay awake. my mind is getting messed up. oh and i need to help chip find my driving theory books. honestly i have no clue at all where i put them. for all i know they could be in some box, but i still have to try to find it. how grand. i've already tried the more obvious places, and i don't know where else to start looking. this is a really sucky feeling... the mind is willing but the body is weak. actually, more like the mind is willing but seriously lost.

ahhh i feel a bit better after all that crap came out of me. still alot more to say, but it's just not coming to my mind now. ciao for now...

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost