the only easy day was yesterday...

i'm using that line in the signals standard of things. hope no divers get offended or anything.

route march on thursday was hell. really really hell. and even though it was only 16km, i really had to push myself. stomach problems from that morning, walked with it, and this weekend kinda slept through the whole of saturday. only woke up to go toilet and eat. really drained myself doing the damn route march. and next week we've got exercise ahf. yet another opportunity for my course commander to screw us all up. honestly i'm not looking forward to it, not at all. and i know i'm certainly not looking forward to endurance exercise. but what to do... just 5 more weeks and i'll be out of SI... hopefully...

really didn't get to see much of her this week. it's been a tough week for her as well. wednesday night was really tough on her. me and my mouth's fault. friday was hard on her too, simply because i'm so damn weak now and i keep falling sick. keep making her cry :( keep making her worry. keep making her spend energy over me. and if i hadn't eaten that damn mango pudding she would be fine and she wouldn't have gotten distracted and tripped and fell at my driveway. i'm just thankful she was wearing jeans instead of shorts. otherwise her knees would be completely gone by now. today she spend the whole day at home preparing her good friend's birthday present. and if i wasn't sick i could've spent the day at her place with her, maybe even helping her with the gift. but the whole of today and last night after she left i find myself tearing my heart to pieces thinking about whether i should get her to spend more time with me, or whether i should leave her to do her own things at home. there's always this internal conflict within me on the weekends, and this weekend it was even more so.

last night i held the shirt u bought for me and cried myself to sleep, because i don't want to ever let you go...

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost

6 weeks down... and so much has changed...

signals is really completely different from my time in bmt and sispec. especially in sispec when i was in charlie. yes there is discipline too, but that's mainly when my course commander is around, coz he's a 1WO who was an rsm last time, so he's really got alot of experience behind him. 28 years to be exact. but the amount of training i've done in an aircon room is really quite overwhelming, so much so that my sinus is acting up again and i've gotta use my medication every morning to prevent feeling sick and screwed up all day long. really sucks. and we sweat alot less, and take in alot less vitamin D. so i'm looking for ways to take in more sun, but with the haze coming down on singapore again from indonesia, that doesn't look very likely in the near future, for the good of my own lungs. i mean i already get enough cigarette smoke from camp, both during and after my friends finish smoking =X makes me even more determined to not pick up smoking man hahaha unbearable stench!

as of today the exercises officially begin. but these exercises are completely different from bslc. then we had gypsy, wanderer, nutcracker and grandslam, where we ran around in some jungle, charging left right up down and centre and smoking the hell out of mosquitoes. but now we have exercises that are conducted in aircon rooms. and these things last for 3 days? omgggggggggggggggggggggggg........... 3 days of aircon room. some people would love it. but i don't. my ass is seriously getting sore from all the sitting down man. i don't even feel as if i really deserve my sleep at night anymore. just eat, sleep, get fair and fall sick. wonderful hahaha

on a different, more automotive note, in my previous entry i said that i was going to own the audi shown in the picture. but recently i came across a much more drop dead attractive audi. but it'll definitely take me longer to get my hands on this one hahaha






everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost

when i first saw that car in a magazine, all i could say to myself was, "damn it i'm going to own that car someday!" hahaha wait long long ah tai... wait long long =p

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost

i hate sunday nights...

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

i can't stand sunday nights, because it means i'll only be able to see her again on friday
=( sorry i couldn't bring you to the beach on saturday... we'll go another time k? :)

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost

11 weeks to go...

3 weeks in stagmont camp have passed by. or as some people call it... slackmont camp hahaha all i can say is that it's a completely different experience from sispec. for starters... we spend as much time in an aircon room now as we did outfield back then. secondly... we hardly sweat!!! thirdly... last time our legs were sore from running... but now my ass is sore from sitting down and sleeping for too long. for many, it's like a dream come true to be able to slack so much for 14 weeks in ns, but for me, it doesn't feel right lah. i think i'm just getting fat here hahaha the only runs we have is during ippt trg. oh yeah and the toughest part about my course is the stand by bed, coz i have an extremely on the ball course commander who used to be an rsm, so he has super ultra high standards. last week he even threatened our bookout!!! that's like a major no no hahaha in sispec when they said bookout at 8, we know we'd bookout latest 8.30. but here they don't tell u a time, and it all depends on how clean our bunks and area is. oh yeah and there's no stand by area, always stand by bed hahaha so must keep cupboard clean too, which isn't very difficult honestly hahaha coz not much personal stores anymore. so this week we really cleaned our asses off, and he came into the bunk, rubbed a few corners looking for dust, and said "well done... good show!" and walked out. ULTIMATE HAPPINESS MAN!!! hahaha we never thought we'd get it. either that or he was in a good mood today. oh well we shall see next week.

tomorrow derek and joshua are flying off to brunei for 3 weeks of hellacious trg before they can get their red beret. i really hope they can survive man. passed 9 months already, would be a real shame if they couldn't get their red beret for whatever reason. may god go with you guys, and take care of yourself in the merciless brunei-ian jungle. hey maybe i'll be able to communicate with them during my AHF exercise hahaha who knows... the wonder of radios =)

tags:

glenn: hahaha yeah man but last time your ic 2 course was alot more slack than mine, coz now we gotta learn infosys as well... which isn't easy for me =X

cheryl: long time no see u toooo!!! hopefully can see u tmr at the airport =)

everybody owes, everybody pays... the cost